Serious How did you react to the Blackpill initially?

[Ticcel]

I know a lot of people here have had gradual exposure to the black pill over the course of their lives but for those went straight from the blue to blackpilled, with little to no transitional period, how did you react to it? For years I was a blue pilled coper who always had this lingering feeling that the reality I had been conditioned to believe was actually false. After finally forcing down the black pill I became extremely depressed. So depressed, in fact, that I forced myself to go to a endocrinologist because I suspected my hormone levels were abnormal. Well, I was right and the levels were so abnormal that the endocrinologist asked if I had recentiy recovered from a severe illness. The black pill literally poisoned me. I am nearing the acceptance stage of the blackpill so things have improved a lot for me. So yeah, how did you react to it?

 

[Michael15651]

Well, a few years back I was stuck in "red pill rage" and my hate for women grew, especially angry at the fact that I was and still am a virgin.

When I found out about the blackpill it more like, "Oh, shit... It all makes sense now."

 

[Deleted member 1780]

I didn't want to believe it. I used to argue with incels actually from a blue pilled perspective around early 2017 ~> late 2017 furiously. I was actually an IT poster back than, mocking incels with the typical screenshotting and all. Slowly however, I found that I couldn't really refute many of the ideas that the blackpill presented, and I ended up passively accepting them. I gradually stopped posting on IT, and started browsing /r/incels more often in a cautious manor.

When I walked outside to have a look at what the incels were talking about, all I could see was the blackpill. Stacies, chads and the whole bunch. It was as if my vision was permanently altered; I finally saw what they were talking about.

That's pretty much how it happened to me. I changed over the course of about 3~4 months. I couldn't really deny it anymore.

 

[Bakura806]

Same I believe most incels go through a phase where he tries to ascend to normie or chad social status in either high school or college, to try to fit in with the cool kids, however the incel realizes the truth about this shitty living nightmare and begins to learn the insidious ways of how he is treated by chads, normies, stacies , and even adults, just because he is ugly, antisocial, and hated for things he cannot control. Atleast thats how is was for me alots of school kids thought i was weird a synonymm for ugly and anitsocial because I tried to fit in but was swiftly rejected by most groups. At this point my eyes have never been this open, to societies true nature.

 

[WillyBlogAndFriends]

The blackpill is just reading the chapter on evolutionary strategies in a college biology textbook tbh and realizing "hey this also applies to humans" and the numales go "women prefer abstract traits instead of PHYSICAL TRAITS, just be yourself"

 

[The End]

I'm such a depressed, hateful, misanthrope that I was more surprised I hadn't realized how absolute the blackpill was at an earlier date, rather than its existence. The black-pill was always my belief; all that changed was just a gradual realization of how absolutely true, without exception, those beliefs were. This was all well before the term "black-pill" even existed. Before this site I considered the "shallowness" of women (and humanity in general) as just another piece of my entire world-view; I called myself an amateur anthropologist.

Lexxi Foxx said it best, "What's important isn't what's on the inside, it's what's on the outside, because that's what everyone sees."

 

[PaulSmenis]

Looked like fun to me.

Originally I come from darker shit than the blackpill philosophy...so it's just nice to have a bit of community for the moment.

 

[Words2_live_bye]

I had no reaction
it only made sense

 

[Mainländer]

First, I found it funny. I remember laughing like crazy the first time I saw the WAW videos by @FACEandLMS

Then, I felt elucidated when thinking about my experiences with women in the past, as well as the ones from friends and acquaintances. Now that I could rate people more objectively, I could see how the levels of success were always strongly correlated with the looks of the guy and the quality of the girl.

Then I got sad. I remembering showing the videos to my Chadlite friend while she was kissing a girl who was watching together with us, I felt subhuman and hopeless on that day, but it was my mistake to put myself on that situation. Hanging out with foids, especially when there's a man with them, is poison for an incel.

Then I got peace. I thought about how the fact my father was absent during my childhood, as well as me being bullied through middle school, aren't nearly as relevant as I thought they were. Because girls weren't rejecting me for being a "beta", but rather for being physically unattractive.

 

[WillyBlogAndFriends]

I'm such a depressed, hateful, misanthrope that I was more surprised I hadn't realized how absolute the blackpill was at an earlier date.

I was aware of the nature of women, and the futility of fighting against your nature, far earlier than I ever heard the phrase "black-pill". I thought it was pretty dumb to describe something that was so obvious as a "realization" of some sort. But then I realized a lot of people were blue-pilled, and in discussing the two points of view the terms make as much sense as any to quickly reference the two belief structures.

It's like sucking cock your whole life and not knowing what sucking cock meant, then one day someone says "hey you're sucking some fat cock" then you Google what he meant and realized there's a whole lot of other guys sucking cock. Then after this realization you discover sucking cock was in fact normal and you shouldn't be sucking cock, others should too, life is unfair because you were born gay and stuck sucking cock while others don't need to suck cock

 

[1984cel]

I was researching incel stuff that led me to lookism, then it all made sense. Dogpills, child molestor chadfishes, height/face theory in full force.

It was reassurance from all the ‘personality’ bullshit

 

[ColdPillow]

I swallowed the blackpill at work and got too angry to finish my shift. It was the heightpill specifically that lead me to the complete truth.

I remember cursing God out in the parking lot and picking up a smoking habit shortly after.

 

[ropecel_is_cope]

At first, then

 

[ICanOnlyFapToBDSM]

I've always been a pessimistic, skeptical person who prefers to know the hard truth instead of comforting lies. I sorta figured most of it out by myself, but I didn't comprehend looks theory or human sexuality until I discovered lookism and r/incels. I was /r9k/ idiot who thought anime romance was real. It was like a fascinating discovery for a while, and I was completely hooked on the memes and theories and red pills.

It was exciting, like discovering a new genre of music or new hobby for the first time. the prime heyday of lookism memes all over 4chan and bodybuilding sites is over but it was for sure exciting, funny stuff. I've always been a rotter but it sorta made me feel less bad about rotting.

 

[The End]

It's like sucking cock your whole life and not knowing what sucking cock meant, then one day someone says "hey you're sucking some fat cock" then you Google what he meant and realized there's a whole lot of other guys sucking cock. Then after this realization you discover sucking cock was in fact normal and you shouldn't be sucking cock, others should too, life is unfair because you were born gay and stuck sucking cock while others don't need to suck cock

Eh... I've always hated sexuality. I saw it as a weakness; I witnessed other men jump through ridiculous hoops to gain approval from women. My own parents' relationship was hell, and the idea of a happy relationship seemed incomprehensible. Besides, I'm so weird and hateful that no one knows the real me, and the more I expose the more I'm despised.

I avoided women fastidiously for more than a short time. I've always despised them intensely (and they felt a similar sentiment towards me). My sexual desire was so powerful, I could only see girls as a distraction from my other obsessions.

I've been interested in the evolution of human behavior for a long time; I saw many parallels between human behavior and alpha gorillas getting to fuck all of the females. Women would go crazy for The Beatles, or N'Sync, or Luke Perry. That individual fixation doesn't happen to guys; we want hot chicks to fuck; we don't obsess over female celebrities we have no chance of ever meeting. I also saw that older women cashed in on their sexuality by marrying the guys they ignored during high-school and their twenties.

That disgusted me, and I swore to never let it happen to me. Which is easy-enough because I don't want relationships. I want to go through girls like tissue paper.

Going on dates is fucking lame
I couldn't be bothered to remember your name
Just want to get fucked and some more of the same
I don't got time for these fucking games

[Chorus:]
Cause all I give a fuck about is sex
All I give a fuck about is fucking sex
I said, all I give a fuck about is sex
All I give a fuck about is fucking sex

I'm not gonna spend a fucking cent on you
You're just another stupid cunt for me to screw
Once you're used up I'll fuck someone new
They'll always be some fucking useless cunt to do

[Chorus]

On my tour bus or when I'm backstage
There's a never-ending line of cunts that want to get laid
Every bitch is blonde, dumb, and underage
Gonna give each one herpes, hep, and hopefully A.I.D.S.

[Chorus]

 

[SchrodingersDick]

I’ve always kinda been blackpilled.. just never officially. I knew wrists and skull size was very important. I knee neck was important and flat occiput.. all of this from just observation.. and ofc things like height, bideltoid, dick size, hair, etc. though I coped about hair since I went bald. I’d tell myself things along the lines of “just be alpha like Jason Statham bro!” I had a hunch about fwhr, in that some people looked meaner and scarier and more intimidating and dangerous than others in a way, but never thought about it in depth and never figured out it was fwhr. I still thought personality was important though. The youthpill hit me hard even before I found the blackpill. I was bashing my head into doors around the time I turned 22... I felt like I had been alone and sad and in my room ever since puberty and that something was definitely not right with me.. I also had a hunch that humans were just like animals in that the largest most dominant male gets all the women, but I couldn’t bring myself to think more about it, fearing what I might find out. I chalked it up to “only crazy people would think we’re just animals, I mean come on”

Then I found PSL. All my worst fears were confirmed. We never left the jungle and we never stopped being monkeys. We’re knuckledragging apes, foids like large violent dangerous GL men. Loyalty doesn’t exist. Personality doesn’t exist. All women are inherently whores. All foids like the same guy. Love isn’t real. SMV is not changeable. Dual mating strategy. Alpha fucks beta bucks. Everything I thought I knew about the world is a lie. Looks determine every aspect of your life. The bullies keep winning. The bullied keep losing. There is no justice in this world. Genetics are everything. Women’s final form is a toilet. Wife-material women don’t exist anymore. Women are doing hitler’s bidding for him. Life ends after your first missed developmental milestone. The quality of your life is directly proportional to your ability to beat people up. Nothing in this world is more important than the length of your leg bones.

It’s been hard. I’m still going through it tbh. I still get cortisol spiked when I see blackpill posts on tinder/twitter hoes or if I see blackpills in real life with my own eyes.

 

[WillyBlogAndFriends]

Eh... I've always hated sexuality. I saw it as a weakness; I witnessed other men jump through ridiculous hoops to gain approval from women. My own parents' relationship was hell, and the idea of a happy relationship seemed incomprehensible. Besides, I'm so weird and hateful that no one knows the real me, and the more I expose the more I'm despised.

I avoided women fastidiously for more than a short time. I've always despised them intensely (and they felt a similar sentiment towards me). My sexual desire was so powerful, I could only see girls as a distraction from my other obsessions.

I've been interested in the evolution of human behavior for a long time; I saw many parallels between human behavior and alpha gorillas getting to fuck all of the females. Women would go crazy for The Beatles, or N'Sync, or Luke Perry. That individual fixation doesn't happen to guys; we want hot chicks to fuck; we don't obsess over female celebrities we have no chance of ever meeting. I also saw that older women cashed in on their sexuality by marrying the guys they ignored during high-school and their twenties.

That disgusted me, and I swore to never let it happen to me. Which is easy-enough because I don't want relationships. I want to go through girls like tissue paper.

Going on dates is fucking lame
I couldn't be bothered to remember your name
Just want to get fucked and some more of the same
I don't got time for these fucking games

[Chorus:]
Cause all I give a fuck about is sex
All I give a fuck about is fucking sex
I said, all I give a fuck about is sex
All I give a fuck about is fucking sex

I'm not gonna spend a fucking cent on you
You're just another stupid cunt for me to screw
Once you're used up I'll fuck someone new
They'll always be some fucking useless cunt to do

[Chorus]

On my tour bus or when I'm backstage
There's a never-ending line of cunts that want to get laid
Every bitch is blonde, dumb, and underage
Gonna give each one herpes, hep, and hopefully A.I.D.S.

[Chorus]

Eh... I've always hated sexuality. I saw it as a weakness; I witnessed other men jump through ridiculous hoops to gain approval from women. My own parents' relationship was hell, and the idea of a happy relationship seemed incomprehensible. Besides, I'm so weird and hateful that no one knows the real me, and the more I expose the more I'm despised.

I avoided women fastidiously for more than a short time. I've always despised them intensely (and they felt a similar sentiment towards me). My sexual desire was so powerful, I could only see girls as a distraction from my other obsessions.

I've been interested in the evolution of human behavior for a long time; I saw many parallels between human behavior and alpha gorillas getting to fuck all of the females. Women would go crazy for The Beatles, or N'Sync, or Luke Perry. That individual fixation doesn't happen to guys; we want hot chicks to fuck; we don't obsess over female celebrities we have no chance of ever meeting. I also saw that older women cashed in on their sexuality by marrying the guys they ignored during high-school and their twenties.

That disgusted me, and I swore to never let it happen to me. Which is easy-enough because I don't want relationships. I want to go through girls like tissue paper.

Going on dates is fucking lame
I couldn't be bothered to remember your name
Just want to get fucked and some more of the same
I don't got time for these fucking games

[Chorus:]
Cause all I give a fuck about is sex
All I give a fuck about is fucking sex
I said, all I give a fuck about is sex
All I give a fuck about is fucking sex

I'm not gonna spend a fucking cent on you
You're just another stupid cunt for me to screw
Once you're used up I'll fuck someone new
They'll always be some fucking useless cunt to do

[Chorus]

On my tour bus or when I'm backstage
There's a never-ending line of cunts that want to get laid
Every bitch is blonde, dumb, and underage
Gonna give each one herpes, hep, and hopefully A.I.D.S.

[Chorus]

Consider this, your life can be driven either by chemical stimulations geared towards sexual evolution or it can be driven by standards of success and happiness established by your society.

There isn't an in between because this is your limitation as a human being in a social species. You can choose to exclude yourself from society or participate and accept the discrimination and advantages along with it.

I am hated for my personality and failures and that's okay because having goals and characteristics based on social norms is something you have to compete for. I am no longer competiting, therefore I acknowledge that I am an objective failure due to my behaviors and the things I do for fulfillment

I am no longer participating (not that I ever did but consciously I am divorced from it) in society but I will utilize the resources I am given by society to fulfill what I determine is fulfilling (despite it also being influenced by society) and will do so until I die and leave this competitive society that I am a failure and futureless person in

This may be a cope but this is the privilege I want to enjoy since I was born in a western country, I am severely short and a brown ethnic with some issues I've already failed university and been shunned by my abusive family, I just live in my room and play RuneScape now in the closet

I'm hoping to submit my SS application for another review but it's unlikely I will get anything further than the funds for my medication

 

[The End]

Consider this, your life can be driven either by chemical stimulations geared towards sexual evolution or it can be driven by standards of success and happiness established by your society.

There isn't an in between because this is your limitation as a human being in a social species. You can choose to exclude yourself from society or participate and accept the discrimination and advantages along with it.

I am hated for my personality and failures and that's okay because having goals and characteristics based on social norms is something you have to compete for. I am no longer competiting, therefore I acknowledge that I am an objective failure due to my behaviors and the things I do for fulfillment

I am no longer participating (not that I ever did but consciously I am divorced from it) in society but I will utilize the resources I am given by society to fulfill what I determine is fulfilling (despite it also being influenced by society) and will do so until I die and leave this competitive society that I am a failure and futureless person in

This may be a cope but this is the privilege I want to enjoy since I was born in a western country, I am severely short and a brown ethnic with some issues I've already failed university and been shunned by my abusive family, I just live in my room and play RuneScape now in the closet

I'm hoping to submit my SS application for another review but it's unlikely I will get anything further than the funds for my medication

Understood. I'm with you 100%.

I like to say I'm not the bottom of the barrel, I'm the scum sticking to the underside of the barrel. In other words, an Omega.

 

[Angryatsociety]

Wanting to kms, also it lead me to the ephinany that there is no Justice in the world and it goes way beyond sex im going down a path to seeing right threw a grand facade and a more indarkended bittersweet reality of demise.

 

[WillyBlogAndFriends]

Understood. I'm with you 100%.

I like to say I'm not the bottom of the barrel, I'm the scum sticking to the underside of the barrel. In other words, an Omega.

Most people can make something out of their lives, even incels if they approach and settle. Most incels have social issues and are somewhat disadvantaged but not to the point of severity. I choose not make anything out of my life because the uphill battle is something I cannot hope to accomplished as a 5'3.5 brown ethnic in the west without an education (failed out) or a family (single mom).

 

[The End]

Most people can make something out of their lives, even incels if they approach and settle. Most incels have social issues and are somewhat disadvantaged but not to the point of severity. I choose not make anything out of my life because the uphill battle is something I cannot hope to accomplished as a 5'3.5 brown ethnic in the west without an education (failed out) or a family (single mom).

This is the attitude a lot of Japanese are taking, and probably the source of the abundance of NEETs. The Japanese are pushed super-hard to succeed in high-school and college, and if they can't succeed then, their future is predetermined to be shitty.

We realize we have no chance of winning, so why even play?

 

[Remyx]

Felt natural when I got blackpilled, everything just started to make sense to me

 

[WillyBlogAndFriends]

This is the attitude a lot of Japanese are taking, and probably the source of the abundance of NEETs. The Japanese are pushed super-hard to succeed in high-school and college, and if they can't succeed then, their future is predetermined to be shitty.

We realize we have no chance of winning, so why even play?

Escapism is merely another form of living, current society ostracizes this however it's much cheaper than being a prison inmmate

 

[FuckingDed]

I read few incel posts back then on reddit who were used as lolcows about how foids treated and deemed us subhuman plus how basically impossible it is to achieve any romantic success as an ugly man in these years. I remember days when I was looking in mirror all the time wondering why I look so cringey and ugly. I started to do some of the 'research' on my own, morphing my face, useing some cosmetic apps etc. finally I came across lookism.net where I got to know the truth and saw best examples of which facial features make the face attractive. During this time all fucking memories of being rejected and mocked in school started to flash before my eyes again and I finaly understood what got all those incels so 'radicalized'. Few millimters of bone could have such a difference. I remember thinking about all the types of foids that I could recall - trashy redneck girls, beckies, feminists, basic bitches.. all them hating me for existing, all them always cold and resentful towards me.
Biggest blackpill was for me however the realization how retarded and fake normie world is. At this point I would prefer to be a weeb and neetbux hermit than engage with this thoroughly evil and pathetic world.

 

[ManletHalfCurry]

Around 14 I begin to question everything, like why the foids in my class would only go for the tall white chads and not me the ethnic manlet, why normies would be nice to my face yet talk shit about me behind my back, why I was bullied so profusely, why not even one foid ever attempt to speak or engage in conversion with me unless I initiated, and the conversations I did initiate all I got were one word replies and exasperated sighs as if they couldn't wait to get away from me. The redpill, then the blackpill came naturally too me, it simply confirmed what I have experienced or could have experienced, during my stay in this fucking shit hole of a world, was all down to a genetic lottery, which I lost.

 

[WillyBlogAndFriends]

Around 14 I begin to question everything, like why the foids in my class would only go for the tall white chads and not me the ethnic manlet, why normies would be nice to my face yet talk shit about me behind my back, why I was bullied so profusely, why not even one foid ever attempt to speak or engage in conversion with me unless I initiated, and the conversations I did initiate all I got were one word replies and exasperated sighs as if they couldn't wait to get away from me. The redpill, then the blackpill came naturally too me, it simply confirmed what I have experienced or could have experienced, during my stay in this fucking shit hole of a world, was all down to a genetic lottery.

Lol cope, this is why you're incel





Why did you write my life story

 

[Deleted member 4159]

I became super depressed. Felt like my life was over.

 

[Lynne]

I already read about Schopenhauer and Benatar before the lookism blackpill. I already held a pessimistic view on reality. Thus, accepting human female nature and human nature in general was easier for me.

 

[WillyBlogAndFriends]

I already read about Schopenhauer and Benatar before the lookism blackpill. I already held a pessimistic view on reality. Thus, accepting human female nature and human nature in general was easier for me.

what is... female nature?