How come I hate people and don't give a shit about them, but irl I get extremely nervous, fidgety, can't even speak properly?

[Deleted member 7448]

I guess at this point I'm doubting my intelligence. Sometimes I really, genuinely suspect I might be stupid. Not in a self-deprecating fishing for compliments way, but I believe there's several things pointing to me being stupid. Like honest to god I might be an idiot.

I seem to have the people at uni and my parents fooled (those are literally the only people I know). Maybe it's cause I'm generally quiet at uni, studying bullshit subjects, and in class I spout bullshit off the top of my head, with the language of an autist (it seems smart but it's really just me not being able to speak properly so I use weird sentences, translating from english in my native languge in my head).

I guess ugly+quiet+spouting shit with autist language = "must be smart right?". Cause how could a guy like that not be smart, if he doesn't have smarts then he's a total 0 and a loser with nothing going for him.

But my self-confidence is at an all time low. Now I can't even look professors in the eye when talking, I'm always fearful they'll know I'm full of shit. I mean, let's be serious, it's a miracle I went on for this long without people discovering I'm a total retard.

 

[ThoughtfulCel]

You subconsciously care about what they think.

 

[Deleted member 19079]

because of the mog

 

[Robtical]

We don't care about them, but we know they might be able to harm us if we offend them or do something weird, so it makes us nervous. I wouldn't care if I was talking to a homeless guy and said something stupid, because he can't do anything positive or negative to me.

 

[Stalin]

Now I can't even look professors in the eye when talking, I'm always fearful they'll know I'm full of shit.

I think you are having some sort of panic attack. It should pass.

 

[TheBasedCel]

because of the mog

 

[SolitaryConfinement]

But my self-confidence is at an all time low. Now I can't even look professors in the eye when talking, I'm always fearful they'll know I'm full of shit. I mean, let's be serious, it's a miracle I went on for this long without people discovering I'm a total retard.

You're afraid of negative judgement, not of being a retard.

The people who are the biggest morons in point of fact think they're geniuses and possess zero self-awareness.

 

[FlamingCel]

being ugly makes us high inhib and polite

 

[AlexanderTheGreat11]

You lack enough social experience because

being ugly makes us high inhib and polite

 

[Deleted member 6329]

Anxiety?

 

[ItsOver4cel]

because of the mog

This tbh I get nervous af once I realize I look horrible

 

[Joelossus]

because of the mog

Cope, i'm pretty sure op is white, so it's impossible for him to get mogged.

 

[Deleted member 19079]

Cope, i'm pretty sure op is white, so it's impossible for him to get mogged.

facts

 

[Deleted member 24125]

because of the mog

 

[Yerberito]

You subconsciously care about what they think.

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True

 

[SMPcel]

because of the mog