I get really depressed when I try to watch porn. At this point it's legit [SuicideFuel] because it's a brutal reminder of what I'll never have because of my face and height. Last week, I was trying to fap in the computer room but I couldn't stop visualizing my downy face my dick wouldn't get hard. I was trying to watch porn but thinking about how ugly I am made me feel legit sick to my stomach and I started crying and punching my thighs. I ran into the bathroom to SH so fast that I accidentally left the porn tab open and then my mom knocked on the bathroom door screaming "I have to get in there NOW!". I rinsed the blood out of the sink and walked out and she said "you also left your granny porn running in the computer room, when are you going to order my double sided coasters for me on Amazon?"