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What is it to be a human to you? What is our role as humans? Be simple pieces of a great unimaginable chess game with a programmed and inevitable outcome? Or does each one possess its unique and immeasurably complex role as a totally independent individual? You know how I knew that I still felt human, I thought deeply of unreal and absurd moments, about throwing myself into a bottomless abyss and a tremendous anguish took over me, now I see that as each day passes this anguish diminishes, it's as if my choices were being decimated, I never really had power over my choices, I never had a true freedom.
And it's them that make my choices get more and more filtered, do you want to be someone? Can not, you're not good enough to join a social circle, you want to seek a meaning in setting up a family? Forget it, you do not have genes good enough to be worthy in passing them on, you want to try to create something unique and to become important with it, good luck, maybe when you die and they forget the face of who did it they will give you some credit for that.
How can I feel human if I'm not able to feel that anguish with each choice I make because I don't really have a choice? How can I feel sympathy for those who have deprived me of the basic needs of a human being, and I am not talking only about sex, this is just one of them, I am talking about our free will, we will never have a real choice, everything is decided, the only choice I have is to accept that I am not human anymore for them and shit on the board or continue on that path that they put me and did not draw any alternative route?
And it's them that make my choices get more and more filtered, do you want to be someone? Can not, you're not good enough to join a social circle, you want to seek a meaning in setting up a family? Forget it, you do not have genes good enough to be worthy in passing them on, you want to try to create something unique and to become important with it, good luck, maybe when you die and they forget the face of who did it they will give you some credit for that.
How can I feel human if I'm not able to feel that anguish with each choice I make because I don't really have a choice? How can I feel sympathy for those who have deprived me of the basic needs of a human being, and I am not talking only about sex, this is just one of them, I am talking about our free will, we will never have a real choice, everything is decided, the only choice I have is to accept that I am not human anymore for them and shit on the board or continue on that path that they put me and did not draw any alternative route?