I also began to have frequent nightmares. It started about two weeks ago or so. I spend my day studying or working and I usually just fall asleep absolutely exhausted. I have dreams where I’m reliving my youth or days in school. Meeting old friends, worrying over arbitrary things like turning in homework. Living a simpler life - it hurts me so much to relive the “best days”, back when I was still somewhat happy. I wish I could just forget them all. The worst are the ones where I have a girlfriend - usually the girl I crushed on in primary school. She was never into me but that doesnt stop my brain from creating this cruel scenario. I always feel sick when I wake up. The dream ends and I’m all alone again. I wish I didn’t have dreams at all, if they’re only going to remind me of my fate and the happiness that I’ll never obtain. Why does my brain have to make scenarios where I get to “experience” love only for it to end so abruptly?