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I have just finished over 5.5 years of therapy, and as a result most of my time was technically voluntary, there were some instances where I did try and was met with rejection, so I am a VolCel and Intel.
Before we could tackle my main issues, the therapist (attractive female) said we had to first tackle my very strong "shield", and I said my worst fear was we would successfully remove the shield but fail to tackle my main issues. So after 5 years of work with the therapist she finally agrees that we have achieved that goal, we had one session on tackling my main issues, and immediately at the start of the second session was "we need to pause" and given your length of time in therapy there will be gradual exit process, (which put me in a tailspin, managed to get a Review, and result was to do 6 sessions on Imagery (emotional stuff) rather than CBT or similar, from the first session (this was back to In person due to Covid the last few years were video calls), I proved that the reasons she gave for pausing was incorrect, at the end of the Imagery sessions (which didn't work) it was suddenly a single exit session, and previously when she mentioned pauses, it was always When you resume I would be happy to treat me again, at the exit session it was suddenly If you return we will see if we can help you, then essentially said you have the number for the Smaritans. No work on how to handle the fact my worst fear of therapy has just come true.
So I am very depressed and to cop it Orr the news recently said a pro unalive forum which the didn't name, was easy to find after Googling. Unfortunately my GoogleFoo has failed me and I can't find it. Can anyone do me a solid and link to it for me?
I have a VPN so the blocking of it by UK broadband providers isn't an issue.
I have just finished over 5.5 years of therapy, and as a result most of my time was technically voluntary, there were some instances where I did try and was met with rejection, so I am a VolCel and Intel.
Before we could tackle my main issues, the therapist (attractive female) said we had to first tackle my very strong "shield", and I said my worst fear was we would successfully remove the shield but fail to tackle my main issues. So after 5 years of work with the therapist she finally agrees that we have achieved that goal, we had one session on tackling my main issues, and immediately at the start of the second session was "we need to pause" and given your length of time in therapy there will be gradual exit process, (which put me in a tailspin, managed to get a Review, and result was to do 6 sessions on Imagery (emotional stuff) rather than CBT or similar, from the first session (this was back to In person due to Covid the last few years were video calls), I proved that the reasons she gave for pausing was incorrect, at the end of the Imagery sessions (which didn't work) it was suddenly a single exit session, and previously when she mentioned pauses, it was always When you resume I would be happy to treat me again, at the exit session it was suddenly If you return we will see if we can help you, then essentially said you have the number for the Smaritans. No work on how to handle the fact my worst fear of therapy has just come true.
So I am very depressed and to cop it Orr the news recently said a pro unalive forum which the didn't name, was easy to find after Googling. Unfortunately my GoogleFoo has failed me and I can't find it. Can anyone do me a solid and link to it for me?
I have a VPN so the blocking of it by UK broadband providers isn't an issue.
sometimes a lot if you're stupid but you still do learn. I know someone with an 80 IQ that learned how to drive but it took them a lot of failed attempts, they're very slow mentally and don't know elementary math, they've been driving for years now and haven't gotten into an accident. I think you gotta accept that you're gonna fuck up and that it'll be embarrassing and might make you self-loathe as a type of cost to learn anything, it'll be worth it, don't give up
