me :"oh ok,thanks" (pause)
"why would you ask me that?"
girl: "because you forget sometimes" (little laugh or smile ,I don't remember)
This interaction happened seven years ago while I was still in highschool before dropping out.I always ditched class after lunch break since we were let outside and I was known for cutting class all the time. Everyone hated my guts and no one went out of their way to talk to me. Except this one incident.This one girl in particular was kind of different from the rest in my class in the fact that I never saw her giggle at me or try to mock me when everyone else did. Even when I completely sperged out at this teacher and she was sitting right opposite of me while the rest of the class was snickering and shit but she just ignored me and had her earphones on with a solemn look.
This incident was the only time she ever spoke to me .I haven't talked to her before even though I was in the same class as her 1 year prior and shortly after that I dropped out.I have been haunted by this simple interaction for almost a decade and i've posted this on multiple forums trying to understand the vague meaning these words and her motive.People on cuckeddit told me she wanted to break the ice with me but I completely failed her by acting cold and standoffish.I was a total social retard and extremely paranoid back than because of the bullying that I had to go through.She was the one that approached me to my desk alone at the end of class while people were leaving,we never talked or had any history before.What was the reason behind this?am I just in complete denial that perhaps she actually liked me and i fucking blew my only chance like a retard?I can't stop thinking about this,it's always in the back of my mind.She's probably married now with kids and maybe they could've been my kids,i could've been her husband
but I was stupid to see the signs.I don't even remember her face anymore,its all blurry but I still dream of that single moment all the time.Though I believe her name was melissa as I remember a teacher calling her that but i'm not sure.
"why would you ask me that?"
girl: "because you forget sometimes" (little laugh or smile ,I don't remember)
This interaction happened seven years ago while I was still in highschool before dropping out.I always ditched class after lunch break since we were let outside and I was known for cutting class all the time. Everyone hated my guts and no one went out of their way to talk to me. Except this one incident.This one girl in particular was kind of different from the rest in my class in the fact that I never saw her giggle at me or try to mock me when everyone else did. Even when I completely sperged out at this teacher and she was sitting right opposite of me while the rest of the class was snickering and shit but she just ignored me and had her earphones on with a solemn look.
This incident was the only time she ever spoke to me .I haven't talked to her before even though I was in the same class as her 1 year prior and shortly after that I dropped out.I have been haunted by this simple interaction for almost a decade and i've posted this on multiple forums trying to understand the vague meaning these words and her motive.People on cuckeddit told me she wanted to break the ice with me but I completely failed her by acting cold and standoffish.I was a total social retard and extremely paranoid back than because of the bullying that I had to go through.She was the one that approached me to my desk alone at the end of class while people were leaving,we never talked or had any history before.What was the reason behind this?am I just in complete denial that perhaps she actually liked me and i fucking blew my only chance like a retard?I can't stop thinking about this,it's always in the back of my mind.She's probably married now with kids and maybe they could've been my kids,i could've been her husband
but I was stupid to see the signs.I don't even remember her face anymore,its all blurry but I still dream of that single moment all the time.Though I believe her name was melissa as I remember a teacher calling her that but i'm not sure.
