No. About almost 2 years ago I HEAVILY considered purchasing an exit bag/suicide bag though. I was very suicidal at the time and often would dream up "fun" ways to do it, like covering myself in chum and jumping into a pit of alligators at a theme park in public, or filling a car up with makeshift explosives and driving off a cliff into an abandoned quarry or something.
Unlike a lot of other people i just kind of saw it as an easy way out of a life I never asked for. It was always a logical solution in my mind and not really produced from sadness, although i was and certainly am still depressed. Eventually after a while the suicidal ideation kind of subsided and while I get bouts of it every now and then, I have kind of accepted my situation for the moment.
I'm not really sure what stopped me that day, when I almost reached the breaking point, but I think it was just the hope that my copes will be better and more advanced in the future. Like maybe a new life inside VR could help me to cope.
