Its like sometimes ill message her. No answer, every day and no answer for like 5 days. But soon as shes having a hard time and needs someone to talk to I never question if I should just ignore her like she always does to me, I just answer and am glad I get to talk to her. As lame as that sounds. I think now I will just ignore her cause im pissed off now. Its been like 8 days and no reply
Two years ago she ignored me for like 3 months after I tried making out with her. But then her Chad BF dumped her (Probably for sucking another Chads dick) and called me crying, like a betabux I went over. I cant help it cause I always still feel like I have a chance of smashing and i want it so bad. Next time she calls me for an emotional tampon I dont know if I am responding. Or I am going there only to bring lots of liquor and hopefully under distress she gets totally wasted THEN lets me smash. But this has happened many times before and no she never let me smash, but once let me sleep in her bed with her but whenever I tried touching she threatened to go to the couch so I stopped.
I remember about 6 years ago at 18 (shes 2 years older), she asked me to lay down with her when she was drunk. I didnt do it, like a bitch. Even though I wanted her then too, I was scared and intimidated by her sometimes, she is just too hot to have anything to do with me, so always felt like a big deal hanging with her. Thought maybe it was a "test" and also I was scared of her big scary BF who just wasnt there at the time but lived there. I dont know why she would ask me then and not ever again. But ever since then the seed has been planted that... I have a chance. Although that was along time ago, maybe she changed but her behavior has not. So I dont know.
Two years ago she ignored me for like 3 months after I tried making out with her. But then her Chad BF dumped her (Probably for sucking another Chads dick) and called me crying, like a betabux I went over. I cant help it cause I always still feel like I have a chance of smashing and i want it so bad. Next time she calls me for an emotional tampon I dont know if I am responding. Or I am going there only to bring lots of liquor and hopefully under distress she gets totally wasted THEN lets me smash. But this has happened many times before and no she never let me smash, but once let me sleep in her bed with her but whenever I tried touching she threatened to go to the couch so I stopped.
I remember about 6 years ago at 18 (shes 2 years older), she asked me to lay down with her when she was drunk. I didnt do it, like a bitch. Even though I wanted her then too, I was scared and intimidated by her sometimes, she is just too hot to have anything to do with me, so always felt like a big deal hanging with her. Thought maybe it was a "test" and also I was scared of her big scary BF who just wasnt there at the time but lived there. I dont know why she would ask me then and not ever again. But ever since then the seed has been planted that... I have a chance. Although that was along time ago, maybe she changed but her behavior has not. So I dont know.
