Profligate
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So I've been doing nofap for about two months now because cooming by myself was making me feel like shit.
For the most part it was good to break that habit. My insomnia improved a lot and I'm able to sleep better now also I don't have as much brain fog anymore.
But the bad part was being horny most of the time which made me miserable because I live in a western country where women dress like whores so today I caved in and bought an escort.
The whole experience was pretty much like you would expect. It was cold, robotic, loveless transactional sex. This wasn't my first time with an escort so I knew what I was getting myself into but still... It made me realise something.
This is how my life will be. There will be no redemption. Nobody is coming to save me. There isn't gonna be that one special girl who will fall in love with me.
Jfl. That's what I used to think because I didn't want to believe that there's really nobody out there. Surely somebody will come along and we will fall in love and live happily ever after right?
No. I was just coping. Even if I hardlooksmaxx I'm still gonna be a neurodivergent freak and this is a really important point. I didn't fully understand the importance of being neurotypical until recently which is why I'm making this thread.
You can use your looks to carry your interactions with women only if you're at least 8/10. If you're sub8 you have to act normal and be able to have a conversation or it's over. And this is something I've been struggling with all my life and there seems to be no way of improving.
I don't know if it's autism or mental illness or just being poorly socialized as a kid but one thing is certain. It has ruined my life.
Inb4 reddit spacing lmaooo yeah well nobody wants to read a wall of text
For the most part it was good to break that habit. My insomnia improved a lot and I'm able to sleep better now also I don't have as much brain fog anymore.
But the bad part was being horny most of the time which made me miserable because I live in a western country where women dress like whores so today I caved in and bought an escort.
The whole experience was pretty much like you would expect. It was cold, robotic, loveless transactional sex. This wasn't my first time with an escort so I knew what I was getting myself into but still... It made me realise something.
This is how my life will be. There will be no redemption. Nobody is coming to save me. There isn't gonna be that one special girl who will fall in love with me.
Jfl. That's what I used to think because I didn't want to believe that there's really nobody out there. Surely somebody will come along and we will fall in love and live happily ever after right?
No. I was just coping. Even if I hardlooksmaxx I'm still gonna be a neurodivergent freak and this is a really important point. I didn't fully understand the importance of being neurotypical until recently which is why I'm making this thread.
You can use your looks to carry your interactions with women only if you're at least 8/10. If you're sub8 you have to act normal and be able to have a conversation or it's over. And this is something I've been struggling with all my life and there seems to be no way of improving.
I don't know if it's autism or mental illness or just being poorly socialized as a kid but one thing is certain. It has ruined my life.
Inb4 reddit spacing lmaooo yeah well nobody wants to read a wall of text