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She entered a phase of her life where she didn't care who she was intimate with, and for the next two years she went from one shitty boyfriend to the next, each one taking what they wanted from her (sex) and leaving.
She says it got to the point where she was "addicted to sex".
After that, she started a relationship with a non-churchgoer who was basically a loser. She didn't necessarily want to date him, but he insisted that he was interested in her, and she felt like she had no choice since he was her only friend at the time.
That relationship ended with him cheating and giving her an STD. And that was the last guy she was with before me.
About a year and a half after that, I started dating her (and did not yet know any of the shit I just wrote above).
Things seemed to be going fine. I was a virgin when we started dating her, and she was willing to put up with my pathetic lack of knowledge about relationships and she was willing to take things really slow for me at first. It was wonderful.
Then, after the first time we had sex (and my first time ever), we were laying in bed she said these words which keep echoing in my head:
"Sorry if I don't seem very good at sex. I'm kind of out of practice ... It's been like a year and a half ... I always used to have, like, a really high sex drive ... Actually, I was kind of a 'sex machine' in other relationships ... kind of to the point where guys would get sick of me. Even in recent relationships, if I wasn't getting laid 2-3 times per day, I would be in a pissy mood. I was with the type of guys who would say 'If I could only do one thing all day it would just be sex', and I wore them out. I've sort of noticed my sex drive going down just a little bit lately. I don't know if I just had raging hormones. I don't know if having an STD mad me realize how much I have to trust my sexual partners. I also know that... well, I equated sex with intimacy, and you've shown me so many more ways to be intimate. Just being in the same room with you is intimate. I'm kind of glad my sex drive has decreased... because I can focus on other things. But at the same time, I'm kind of disappointed. You're the most attractive guy I've ever seen, and I just want to be able to do things etc., etc, to you all the time" (Note: she didn't actually say "etc. etc.", I just couldn't remember her exact words here).
This was a more than my romantically inexperienced mind could process.
In other conversations, she went on to tell me about her sex addiction, and also told me that she lost track of the number of guys she's had sex with. So many people gave her so much shit for it that she did everything she could to forget the number.
JFL. Imagine finally ascending, then the foid starts talking about all the other Chads she's fucked before you, and the STD she got before you.
