SuicidalSackOfShit
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- Jun 16, 2023
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When I was a child, I was never treated well. My family always picked me last. I was always alone at school. I have a distinct memory of sitting alone in my high chair simply because my parents forgot me there.
This led to lots and lots of time sitting alone.
It took me a while to notice, but my older brother was always liked. He was the popular guy in school. The family always loved him. They picked him first. They gave him more. I spent my whole life wondering why.
Even in my teen years Id ask him for advice and he'd say what all the other blue-pillers would say:
"Just be confident" "hit the gym"
I did hit the gym, but for some reason I was never able to be confident enough. I was always ignored. The teachers eyes always glossed over mine.
I was practically invisible in school, but when someone did speak to me it was always because they knew my brother. Living in his shadow was like being in hell.
Imagine what it's like to finally get an ugly girlfriend and then watch her get a crush on your brother.
Imagine how horrible it feels to have your school psychologist tell you to shut up and the next day watch her flirt with your brother.
Imagine what it's like to NEVER get a hug from your mother but watch her put your older brother as her wallpaper, and NEVER you!
A few years ago, i realized it's because he's taller than me. And better looking.
It's that simple.
He's a Chad. Not a chadlite. I'm an incel. While I'm scheduling surgeries women reach out to him on dating apps and he brags to the family about it.
While I'm statusmaxxing and building businesses, he's flirting with women and enjoying himself.
I lose more and more weight but for some damn reason my face won't lose anymore fat. I take a minimum of 10 potassium pills a day plus everything I drink is full of potassium.
And it still isn't enough. I've been gymaxxing since I was 16 and it still isn't enough...
We don't even have the same head shape.
I always wondered why my parents would call me his retarded little brother.
But now I see it's because I look deformed.
I'm going to rope soon.
This led to lots and lots of time sitting alone.
It took me a while to notice, but my older brother was always liked. He was the popular guy in school. The family always loved him. They picked him first. They gave him more. I spent my whole life wondering why.
Even in my teen years Id ask him for advice and he'd say what all the other blue-pillers would say:
"Just be confident" "hit the gym"
I did hit the gym, but for some reason I was never able to be confident enough. I was always ignored. The teachers eyes always glossed over mine.
I was practically invisible in school, but when someone did speak to me it was always because they knew my brother. Living in his shadow was like being in hell.
Imagine what it's like to finally get an ugly girlfriend and then watch her get a crush on your brother.
Imagine how horrible it feels to have your school psychologist tell you to shut up and the next day watch her flirt with your brother.
Imagine what it's like to NEVER get a hug from your mother but watch her put your older brother as her wallpaper, and NEVER you!
A few years ago, i realized it's because he's taller than me. And better looking.
It's that simple.
He's a Chad. Not a chadlite. I'm an incel. While I'm scheduling surgeries women reach out to him on dating apps and he brags to the family about it.
While I'm statusmaxxing and building businesses, he's flirting with women and enjoying himself.
I lose more and more weight but for some damn reason my face won't lose anymore fat. I take a minimum of 10 potassium pills a day plus everything I drink is full of potassium.
And it still isn't enough. I've been gymaxxing since I was 16 and it still isn't enough...
We don't even have the same head shape.
I always wondered why my parents would call me his retarded little brother.
But now I see it's because I look deformed.
I'm going to rope soon.