Ticcel
Product of an unjust world.
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- Nov 5, 2018
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About a week ago my professor called on me in class to answer a question. I’m usually on top of my studies so it shouldn’t have been a problem. Well, it was a philosophy question so the question wasn’t exactly straightforward. Anyways, after seeing all 200 hundred heads turn towards me I started panicking. My facial tics starting acting up and I immediately went into fight or flight mode. I treated the question like an attack on me personally and instead of answering the question directly, I tried to logically dismantle the integrity of the question itself. I really didn’t intend to do this, my sympathetic nervous system took over. The other students started laughing, including some fellow incels in denial. I haven’t shown up to that class in a week because of this. I might end up failing the class. I have managed to eliminate most triggers for my anxiety, but public speaking(to an audience larger than about 10 people) still manages to trigger my anxiety. This is due to a traumatic experience I had as child and also my appearance of course.