so a friend i use to smoke meth with called me today out of the blue asking if i would help him move out of his trailer home.... i said yes under the condition that nobody was gonna be around because right now i'm high inhib and i can't take questions from normies especially women. he said nobody was around so i went. fuckng mistake man i literally want to die after what happened. fucking hate the very fiber of my ugly subhuman existence.... anyways as we were putting stuff into the truck(tools) his hott 20 year old daughter comes out to bring us tea (she looks like a white angel tbh) and makes small talk... my homie and her are talking and the conversation turns to me.
"so rigo how you been"
no answer. i just kept looking down like a retard.
"heh you look better clean. good job on quitting drugs. have you found somebody?"
jesus christ i was sweating bullets. i couldn't look up at her. ever since i smelled her stench(beautiful smell of romance by ralph lauren. i know this because i follow her facebook through my Henri Castelli catfish facebook and saw that she bought that perfume so i went to smell a tester at the mall so i could be alerted if she was ever around me) when she opened the door i immediately withdrew into my own world and looked down since i couldn't face her. i literally started having delusions of grander thinking of marriage and kids with her and started to have visual hallucinations where she asked for my number.
her beautiful blue eyes, long blond hair, perfect 5'7 slender frame, nice freckles, and lilac white skin LITERALLY TRIGGERED A PSYCHOTIC BREAK UNTO ME
the fact that as a subhuman ethnic ugly genetically deformed piece of shit will never have her wreaks the very core of my soul. it hurts so fucking much knowing i will never even get a normal looking girl. i'd SETTLE for anything. fuck hypergamy.
lucky know a days i can control my schizophrenia with the medication but still my homie had to tell her "hes having a bad day".
after that our conversations were awkward. i dont think my homie will ever call me again.
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"so rigo how you been"
no answer. i just kept looking down like a retard.
"heh you look better clean. good job on quitting drugs. have you found somebody?"
jesus christ i was sweating bullets. i couldn't look up at her. ever since i smelled her stench(beautiful smell of romance by ralph lauren. i know this because i follow her facebook through my Henri Castelli catfish facebook and saw that she bought that perfume so i went to smell a tester at the mall so i could be alerted if she was ever around me) when she opened the door i immediately withdrew into my own world and looked down since i couldn't face her. i literally started having delusions of grander thinking of marriage and kids with her and started to have visual hallucinations where she asked for my number.
her beautiful blue eyes, long blond hair, perfect 5'7 slender frame, nice freckles, and lilac white skin LITERALLY TRIGGERED A PSYCHOTIC BREAK UNTO ME
the fact that as a subhuman ethnic ugly genetically deformed piece of shit will never have her wreaks the very core of my soul. it hurts so fucking much knowing i will never even get a normal looking girl. i'd SETTLE for anything. fuck hypergamy.
lucky know a days i can control my schizophrenia with the medication but still my homie had to tell her "hes having a bad day".
after that our conversations were awkward. i dont think my homie will ever call me again.
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