I spent many years praying to God to help me find a wife/girlfriend for myself but it never happened. Yet God gave wives to those who bullied me at school. God also helped my two cousins to have children. God chose me to live alone throughout my life and watch other men have wives and girlfriends and being happy. My church told me that I have to be single for Jesus and be celibate for Jesus and that makes me depressed. It's very sad that God selected me to live a sad unhappy life without a wife/girlfriend while God selects other men to live a nice happy life with a wife/girlfriend. I've spent many years craving something that God never wanted me to have. At 40 I'm now too old to find a wife/girlfriend for myself.
