Title. If you don't know what G&T program is it's a program you get put into when you're 6 years old in America if the school thinks you are smart and/or special i.e. autism, aspergers, adhd, etc
The problem is that you are with the exact same people for the rest of elementary school (ages 7-11 for me) and you're never allowed to interact with anybody outside of your class, so you physically can not make friends with any other "normal" kids. The ratio of girls to guys in this class is like 2-1 so you generally only have maybe 4 or 5 other guys in the class with you, and obviously only guys were friends with guys and girls with girls (women are only "friends" with guys they think are cute, and none of the people in here were above a 3/10, so they pretended we didn't exist). The other thing is that because it's a small group they combine two grade levels in one class (e.g. 2nd and 3rd grade, 4th and 5th grade), so ever year half of your potential friend group disappears.
So I got put into this class at age 6 by my mom, who was essentially forced into it because the school gets a lot of money for the program here, and that was my life in elementary school. I have autism, but up until this point in my life I handled it pretty well. I was still able to play with other kids, interacting with others, basically I was normal kid, if just a little weird. But after I got put into this program, my social development quickly did a 180. In my class, I only had in my life five potential friends, most of whom were either more fucked up than I was or quiet smart kids whose parents didn't want them making any friends for the sake of their studies. I think in total I only had three friends the rest of elementary school, and keep in mind because of the class combination I would lose two of them every year meaning I only had one friend half the time. So anyway by fourth grade I had became extremely depressed and was constantly thinking about suicide despite only being like 9 at the time. I had quit all sports I was a part of, stopped going to church, and doing any normal kid things because I could no longer interact with normal people. My autism became so bad that and I was throwing constant tantrums and unable to speak to most people besides my parents and the friends I talked about earlier, but to a much lesser extent. Because of my social failings I was thrown by proxy into the internet rabbit hole just to have any interaction, which ruined my life even further but I won't get into that in this post.
I think a lot of my problems with people and especially women stem from this program and it's impact on my development. Wanted to know if there's any other former G&Tcels out there, or if anyone in similar situations had a similar experience?
TL;DR Was put into a program for smart and special kids early in life and it ruined my social development, turning me into the incel I am today
The problem is that you are with the exact same people for the rest of elementary school (ages 7-11 for me) and you're never allowed to interact with anybody outside of your class, so you physically can not make friends with any other "normal" kids. The ratio of girls to guys in this class is like 2-1 so you generally only have maybe 4 or 5 other guys in the class with you, and obviously only guys were friends with guys and girls with girls (women are only "friends" with guys they think are cute, and none of the people in here were above a 3/10, so they pretended we didn't exist). The other thing is that because it's a small group they combine two grade levels in one class (e.g. 2nd and 3rd grade, 4th and 5th grade), so ever year half of your potential friend group disappears.
So I got put into this class at age 6 by my mom, who was essentially forced into it because the school gets a lot of money for the program here, and that was my life in elementary school. I have autism, but up until this point in my life I handled it pretty well. I was still able to play with other kids, interacting with others, basically I was normal kid, if just a little weird. But after I got put into this program, my social development quickly did a 180. In my class, I only had in my life five potential friends, most of whom were either more fucked up than I was or quiet smart kids whose parents didn't want them making any friends for the sake of their studies. I think in total I only had three friends the rest of elementary school, and keep in mind because of the class combination I would lose two of them every year meaning I only had one friend half the time. So anyway by fourth grade I had became extremely depressed and was constantly thinking about suicide despite only being like 9 at the time. I had quit all sports I was a part of, stopped going to church, and doing any normal kid things because I could no longer interact with normal people. My autism became so bad that and I was throwing constant tantrums and unable to speak to most people besides my parents and the friends I talked about earlier, but to a much lesser extent. Because of my social failings I was thrown by proxy into the internet rabbit hole just to have any interaction, which ruined my life even further but I won't get into that in this post.
I think a lot of my problems with people and especially women stem from this program and it's impact on my development. Wanted to know if there's any other former G&Tcels out there, or if anyone in similar situations had a similar experience?
TL;DR Was put into a program for smart and special kids early in life and it ruined my social development, turning me into the incel I am today
