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I’ve always accepted that I’m ugly, not tall enough, and not a big enough dick (6 inches). All these realizations made me choose the black pill. The other day I was just laying in my bed thinking about shit like I always do, and some sort of realization really hit me. I had full realization of the fact I will die alone, no one by death bed, no one at my funereal, and no one to remember me. I wish every fucking minute I could’ve been born attractive. I’d have so much more than I do now. I’d have a girlfriend who cared about me, I’d have big groups of friends, I could create a family and have nice job, I’d be treated like a person and I could thrive in this world. I don’t go outside, I don’t go to stores and public. I’m too afraid to see my reflection of an ugly miserable man I am. I can’t look at my shadow, My fucking shadow, without wanting to shoot myself in the face. Fuck this world, soon I’ll get a gun and kill myself. I’m just counting down the days. This place, and other forums gives me a sense of belonging and is my only communication with outside world.
