Incels.is - Involuntary Celibate

i feel it's over now I can't tolerate my feeling toward my cousin. She is 5 yr older than me she wasnt really attractive plus she had messy curly hair but as time passes she got grade ,good college while i was good in school wasn't that ugly as her but now I m ugly and i left college
Since childhood she use to make me cry like once she stole my collected money during child and ran away to her home. I told her mom and she knew it..but she didn't let me enter her house till I had to bring my father..I was scared of my father since childhood so i lost few money but it was so much as i saved from lunch money..
Now she is little slut ..She did hair straight thing. She has lot of boyfriend and her family progressed lot. Now she directly laughs at me. She always has laughing face while looking at me.
I cant take it over i m going to throw acid on her..I don't care..She has laughed lot to me which makes me completely soundless and my anger just can't hold in my body. ..I m going to do it guys.. also it would be great revenge to her aunt as well seeing her daughter forever in pain..I m not thinking aftermath but one thing I know is i would be lot happy after that event and that is tonight