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As some of you may know if you saw my previous posts, I think of the rope very realistically and I'm scared of it but also willing to embrace it. However, I'm trying to give looksmaxxxxing a chance and actually excited about the possibility of turning my life around that way.
However, idk why but today I can't stop mourning all I already missed out on and how flawed my life will still be even if I looksmaxxx now. Maybe because I ran out of jew pills from taking twice the dose the doctor said lmao. All I can aspire to, even if my plan works, is to be chadlite, because chad by definition wouldn't need to looksmaxxx in the first place as he's a god. So basically what will happen if I become chadlite is, I still would be experiencing love for the first time, which should've happened over 10 years ago, and somehow hiding it, with someone who has taken miles upon miles of chad dick already, won't even get to really choose or be adored by girls as Chad since chadlite only gets chad's crumbs (which can be tough after chadfishing bc you've seen what being a man is supposed to be like). Even if I looksmaxxx my life will still be kinda shit, experiencing love for the first time at 26 is just pathetic and unacceptable. I missed out on SO much, and there's no way around that.
I was supposed to be happy as a teen. To have friends and girlfriends and spend time hanging out. But instead got bullied at school, most importantly also bullied at home by my parents (as a teen I was a huge mentalcel as a consequence, some teachers basically thought I was retarded, they never thought I may be abused at home, not even the school psychologist), and my life was utter shit. I'm now a proper incel because I look like shit from all the stress etc, but used to be just mentalcel. That's why I think I have potential. But now what I'm trying to do will at best lead to a shitty relationship with a woman who is in a complete different mental state than me and a complete different situation developmentally, and pretending I had gfs and hiding the truth about my past from her, and deep down resent her due to all I've suffered and she hasn't. Like what's the point.
However, idk why but today I can't stop mourning all I already missed out on and how flawed my life will still be even if I looksmaxxx now. Maybe because I ran out of jew pills from taking twice the dose the doctor said lmao. All I can aspire to, even if my plan works, is to be chadlite, because chad by definition wouldn't need to looksmaxxx in the first place as he's a god. So basically what will happen if I become chadlite is, I still would be experiencing love for the first time, which should've happened over 10 years ago, and somehow hiding it, with someone who has taken miles upon miles of chad dick already, won't even get to really choose or be adored by girls as Chad since chadlite only gets chad's crumbs (which can be tough after chadfishing bc you've seen what being a man is supposed to be like). Even if I looksmaxxx my life will still be kinda shit, experiencing love for the first time at 26 is just pathetic and unacceptable. I missed out on SO much, and there's no way around that.
I was supposed to be happy as a teen. To have friends and girlfriends and spend time hanging out. But instead got bullied at school, most importantly also bullied at home by my parents (as a teen I was a huge mentalcel as a consequence, some teachers basically thought I was retarded, they never thought I may be abused at home, not even the school psychologist), and my life was utter shit. I'm now a proper incel because I look like shit from all the stress etc, but used to be just mentalcel. That's why I think I have potential. But now what I'm trying to do will at best lead to a shitty relationship with a woman who is in a complete different mental state than me and a complete different situation developmentally, and pretending I had gfs and hiding the truth about my past from her, and deep down resent her due to all I've suffered and she hasn't. Like what's the point.
