Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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I don't have to work for another 10 months.
But my dad mentioned today about a possible favor he might be able to pull to get me a job. Even though it's in 10 months, I immediately became super anxious.
Seriously, I haven't felt this kind of negative, oppressive anxiety in months (well it's the summer holiday so it's pretty chill).
Anyway, so many negative thoughts filled my mind. How do I act normal? How do I prevent an eventual bad reputation as the quiet one or the weirdo like in any other time I've had to introduce myself to new people. Am I going to appear incompetent? Are the backstabby, gossipy and ruthless people in this country going to make my life miserable? Are my small idiosyncrasies or mannerisms or ways of speaking that are slightly weird that I can't control that well cause I haven't interacted with people much in this life, are they gonna end up making me a laughing stock with everybody talking behind my back?
I've had a million other negative thoughts, I didn't even have time to think about how much I hate wageslaving or the small salaries in this country, my mind could only focus on how stressful it's gonna be and how I'll have to interact with a lot of new people and there's going to be intense scrutiny.
But my dad mentioned today about a possible favor he might be able to pull to get me a job. Even though it's in 10 months, I immediately became super anxious.
Seriously, I haven't felt this kind of negative, oppressive anxiety in months (well it's the summer holiday so it's pretty chill).
Anyway, so many negative thoughts filled my mind. How do I act normal? How do I prevent an eventual bad reputation as the quiet one or the weirdo like in any other time I've had to introduce myself to new people. Am I going to appear incompetent? Are the backstabby, gossipy and ruthless people in this country going to make my life miserable? Are my small idiosyncrasies or mannerisms or ways of speaking that are slightly weird that I can't control that well cause I haven't interacted with people much in this life, are they gonna end up making me a laughing stock with everybody talking behind my back?
I've had a million other negative thoughts, I didn't even have time to think about how much I hate wageslaving or the small salaries in this country, my mind could only focus on how stressful it's gonna be and how I'll have to interact with a lot of new people and there's going to be intense scrutiny.
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