I realize that right from the time of my life when I began to have awareness of the opposite sex was that most females had a neglecting attitude towards me , they didn't like to be associated with me and generally really felt uncomfortable, even though in my teen years I was pretty bluepilled and treated every girl with great respect and nice attitude and yet they were pretty much trying to sideline me in every sphere and saw me as a lesser being. I remember only three reactions from females, the " Still face mother " attitude, mocking attitude , or some of the fake moralist who saw me as an asexual lesser being who need to be saved by her moral maxims of " relationship isn't everything. Just fuck my life, last night i was so depressed I was trying to fall into an endless dark abyss or something like that
