Sheogorath
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One thing about being a chubbo is I think it makes me more at peace with foids being disinterested in me.
I for example often feel justified in not being attracted to 900 lb female landwhales, I don't hate myself for it, so I would be a hypocrite to hate foids for also not wanting to be attracted to 900lb male landwhales.
I'm not actually 900lbs, but it's the same principal, just having the line drawn at a different cutoff point for the standards.
So if a foid doesn't want to flirt with me, or acts repulsed if I'm around her, I can resist misogynistic impulses.
I can think "that's perfectly logical, I'm a fatass, I don't deserve her affection because I'm not fit, NOT BEGRUDGED"
If I actually made more of an effort to be fit and somehow got ripped though... I couldn't justify such an internal monologue.
Instead I would have to assume it's some other factor: she can't be hating the overindulgent low-willpower aspect of my personality exhibited in excess adipose storage, because that evidence would not be there.
So instead, she must hate some other factor about me, like my face, my height, my mannerisms, my opinions, etc.
A foid disliking those things is something I would be less at peace with. I might be tempted into hating her as a result.
But I never have to think about foids hating me for those reasons because I have my fat to blame as the reason for her disinterest, so that I can forgive her for that disinterest.
It's a kind of cope for sure, but an unusual form of cope.
Instead of coping with loneliness in general, it just copes with avoiding the impulse to hate others for rejecting me, if I can construct a reason to reject me which I would consider justified.
I for example often feel justified in not being attracted to 900 lb female landwhales, I don't hate myself for it, so I would be a hypocrite to hate foids for also not wanting to be attracted to 900lb male landwhales.
I'm not actually 900lbs, but it's the same principal, just having the line drawn at a different cutoff point for the standards.
So if a foid doesn't want to flirt with me, or acts repulsed if I'm around her, I can resist misogynistic impulses.
I can think "that's perfectly logical, I'm a fatass, I don't deserve her affection because I'm not fit, NOT BEGRUDGED"
If I actually made more of an effort to be fit and somehow got ripped though... I couldn't justify such an internal monologue.
Instead I would have to assume it's some other factor: she can't be hating the overindulgent low-willpower aspect of my personality exhibited in excess adipose storage, because that evidence would not be there.
So instead, she must hate some other factor about me, like my face, my height, my mannerisms, my opinions, etc.
A foid disliking those things is something I would be less at peace with. I might be tempted into hating her as a result.
But I never have to think about foids hating me for those reasons because I have my fat to blame as the reason for her disinterest, so that I can forgive her for that disinterest.
It's a kind of cope for sure, but an unusual form of cope.
Instead of coping with loneliness in general, it just copes with avoiding the impulse to hate others for rejecting me, if I can construct a reason to reject me which I would consider justified.