I havent been active much because i have been trying to cope and doing the things people told me would work. I went to the gym, got the clothes and all the showers. All i have to show for it are disappointments, just today a girl whom i thought i was gonna make it with didnt even acknowledge me when she saw me. It took everything from me to go up to her and for a moment i thought it was real that i made it. I talked to her a bit and even made her laugh but looking back at it now it must have been a fake smile.
The next day she wouldnt even say hi to me as if i wasant there, i tried to strike a conversation but all she could do was try to walk away saying "mhm yeah ok".