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When I hear about the diving holidays of my colleague for example I feel good for him of course, but on the other hand I also have feelings of intense envy/bitterness/sadness. It's not even something I would want to do (even if I had the financial capacities). I am too much of a pussy to actually go diving with sharks/other animals (I wouldn't even dare to see them from a cage), have no interest in diving itself and I am physically too unfit/inept for it, but I still envy him for it although I would probably do nothing if I was in his shoes.
When I hear about the economic success of acquaintances I feel nothing or sometimes even joy, but extremely bitter feelings are also present although money is most of the time nothing I really care about because I have neither expensive hobbies nor a family to care for so I couldn't do anything with it anyways. The same thing when someone tells me about his motorcycle or plant collection, his success in sports or video games.
My envy isn't even understandable in these cases because I don't even care about the things they have - unlike the envy towards chad because he has something (e.g. women/love/support/positivity) I actually want and therefore it's understandable to have feelings of envy/hatred towards him because he lives in the overindulgence of desired things that I will never have/that I never had. But even when I don't actually want something I feel envy/bitterness when someone else gets it. Does anyone else have the same problem?
When I hear about the economic success of acquaintances I feel nothing or sometimes even joy, but extremely bitter feelings are also present although money is most of the time nothing I really care about because I have neither expensive hobbies nor a family to care for so I couldn't do anything with it anyways. The same thing when someone tells me about his motorcycle or plant collection, his success in sports or video games.
My envy isn't even understandable in these cases because I don't even care about the things they have - unlike the envy towards chad because he has something (e.g. women/love/support/positivity) I actually want and therefore it's understandable to have feelings of envy/hatred towards him because he lives in the overindulgence of desired things that I will never have/that I never had. But even when I don't actually want something I feel envy/bitterness when someone else gets it. Does anyone else have the same problem?