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This might sound insane, and other incels are the only people i could possibly imagine not disregarding it, but since late 2021, i have been paranoid about other people, everywhere and always, looking and staring at me, and judging me.
It started with that that i would occasionally notice other people staring at me, or getting an abnormal amount of glances. A woman staring as i passed her. Taking a pizza out of a freezer at a store only to see a woman across from me staring. A man at my workplace staring from a meeting room behind me. So on. Allot of it. Never noticed anything like it before. It, along with other factors, made me really self conscious and downright uncomfortable around others. Eventually quit my job, got on welfare and didn’t go outside for a year. Got groceries delivered home.
Started going outside again after that, for groceries and meetings (welfare), and it was extremely uncomfortable, different from before, and it’s not much better like two years later now. I feel abnormal, different, like i stand out, like people notice and react to something about me and stare and comment. I’ve noticed people looking and staring at me, and visually reacting, tons of times. Even if was to disregard half of everything i’ve ever noticed as nothing or my imagination, it would still be more than enough to validate my thoughts.
Thing is, i started working part time in November, and it’s gotten too much now, like it’s broken me mentally. Almost every time i go outside, i notice at least someone staring at me, sometimes it’s several times, sometimes i notice people react too. I feel like a freakshow at this point, and now i gotta deal with coworkers and customers at work. Also had my worst experiences since i started working, like once at the buss home i turned only for a new passenger next to me just staring right at me and smiling.
I don’t look around that much to check, so it’s mostly just that i feel the stares and judgement, but i probably notice someone seemingly staring at me maybe 1/3rd of the time i look around myself. I’m at a loss for what’s causing all of it, i mean clearly there’s something about me that warrants an abnormal amount of attention, and sometimes causes people to clearly react upon seeing me. Having thought about it allot, the only reason i can arrive at is that i’m very short and looking like a boy. 5,4 ft ish, and my face basically haven’t changed since i was 15 (puberty scammed me).
Idk what to make of everything… Can being short and looking young draw so much attention? Doesn’t seem right, but idk wtf else it could be… Again, i can ignore 50% of everything i’ve actually seen, and it would still be excessive
It started with that that i would occasionally notice other people staring at me, or getting an abnormal amount of glances. A woman staring as i passed her. Taking a pizza out of a freezer at a store only to see a woman across from me staring. A man at my workplace staring from a meeting room behind me. So on. Allot of it. Never noticed anything like it before. It, along with other factors, made me really self conscious and downright uncomfortable around others. Eventually quit my job, got on welfare and didn’t go outside for a year. Got groceries delivered home.
Started going outside again after that, for groceries and meetings (welfare), and it was extremely uncomfortable, different from before, and it’s not much better like two years later now. I feel abnormal, different, like i stand out, like people notice and react to something about me and stare and comment. I’ve noticed people looking and staring at me, and visually reacting, tons of times. Even if was to disregard half of everything i’ve ever noticed as nothing or my imagination, it would still be more than enough to validate my thoughts.
Thing is, i started working part time in November, and it’s gotten too much now, like it’s broken me mentally. Almost every time i go outside, i notice at least someone staring at me, sometimes it’s several times, sometimes i notice people react too. I feel like a freakshow at this point, and now i gotta deal with coworkers and customers at work. Also had my worst experiences since i started working, like once at the buss home i turned only for a new passenger next to me just staring right at me and smiling.
I don’t look around that much to check, so it’s mostly just that i feel the stares and judgement, but i probably notice someone seemingly staring at me maybe 1/3rd of the time i look around myself. I’m at a loss for what’s causing all of it, i mean clearly there’s something about me that warrants an abnormal amount of attention, and sometimes causes people to clearly react upon seeing me. Having thought about it allot, the only reason i can arrive at is that i’m very short and looking like a boy. 5,4 ft ish, and my face basically haven’t changed since i was 15 (puberty scammed me).
Idk what to make of everything… Can being short and looking young draw so much attention? Doesn’t seem right, but idk wtf else it could be… Again, i can ignore 50% of everything i’ve actually seen, and it would still be excessive
