I have to try and maintain regular contact with normies because I'm too poor to live by myself so I need their help with basic stuff like job applications, networking, social skills, indications, college coleagues help and stuff like that, but I can't help but not ignore and get FOMO'd by their outgoing lives and somewhat striving success with foids and the overall general society activity and I think they already perceive my non nt personally so I can easily be labelled as 'weird', but my main problem with them is their foids being brushed out on my face, like they are proudly showing them off to the weak and defeated in some sort of hubris agains't me, I can feel that and that bothers me a lot, but my hands are tied because I can't wreck everything up not just yet, I always feel a slightly high will to go into the woods and abandon this crazy madness and let the foids naturally exploit the shit out them, maybe I will do this someday
