Its nice to be back on here. It's been about 2 weeks I think. So I believe I should explain.
The short and typical answer for most of my past absences on here are seasonal. For some reason, usually around this time of year. I'm just less active and have less effort. I cant explain why. It just is the case everywhere.
As for the main reason though. 2 years ago around December time I was drunk and stupidly accepted a contract type deal from one of my employers that would constantly see me in working mode. Effectively wageslaving. At the time I regretted it when I woke up and the operation fell through anyway so it never happened. But come recently. There's been certain issues that have bought back a similar need for such things to happen. I've been called up and I don't really have much choice because if this all goes to shit, my entire cash stream would die off. So for now, I'm supporting my employers to keep our revenue stream alive and working.
I do not enjoy the process though. It cuts into a lot of my rotting time. I also don't launder any money I make so I'll end up with a few hundred thousands worth of unspendable cash that I'll hopefully be able to rot with for some years without having to lift a finger. That's the only plus to this, although I likely will be dead before I could ever spend it, so it's pointless in that sense. But sadly I have to just leave most of it there doing nothing because I cant use it without getting fucked for using it.
However I feel fucking shit having to take the time to do it all. All day all the time when life is already over for me. I just want to get into a crash and die sometimes tbh. I'd rather be around these spaces all day as I did before, rotting but talking to people. It's a less than ideal situation but if i'm to maintain my space to rot. I don't really have much choice until this whole load of bullshit is sorted and there's no more issues going on. I look forward to the day I can sit here and rot again daily. Because as reject, the working everyday life is not for me. Life already sucks enough to be slaving away.
I'll try to be on here when I can. I still appreciate you all, and fuck all the normies who have no conception of the struggles we face. I wish the worst for them in life because they deserve to feel what it's like.
The short and typical answer for most of my past absences on here are seasonal. For some reason, usually around this time of year. I'm just less active and have less effort. I cant explain why. It just is the case everywhere.
As for the main reason though. 2 years ago around December time I was drunk and stupidly accepted a contract type deal from one of my employers that would constantly see me in working mode. Effectively wageslaving. At the time I regretted it when I woke up and the operation fell through anyway so it never happened. But come recently. There's been certain issues that have bought back a similar need for such things to happen. I've been called up and I don't really have much choice because if this all goes to shit, my entire cash stream would die off. So for now, I'm supporting my employers to keep our revenue stream alive and working.
I do not enjoy the process though. It cuts into a lot of my rotting time. I also don't launder any money I make so I'll end up with a few hundred thousands worth of unspendable cash that I'll hopefully be able to rot with for some years without having to lift a finger. That's the only plus to this, although I likely will be dead before I could ever spend it, so it's pointless in that sense. But sadly I have to just leave most of it there doing nothing because I cant use it without getting fucked for using it.
However I feel fucking shit having to take the time to do it all. All day all the time when life is already over for me. I just want to get into a crash and die sometimes tbh. I'd rather be around these spaces all day as I did before, rotting but talking to people. It's a less than ideal situation but if i'm to maintain my space to rot. I don't really have much choice until this whole load of bullshit is sorted and there's no more issues going on. I look forward to the day I can sit here and rot again daily. Because as reject, the working everyday life is not for me. Life already sucks enough to be slaving away.
I'll try to be on here when I can. I still appreciate you all, and fuck all the normies who have no conception of the struggles we face. I wish the worst for them in life because they deserve to feel what it's like.
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