The FitxFearless video's total view count was over 3 million + reposts to probably 5 million.
So people from my Elementary School saw it, people from my middle school (the same middle school my brother went to saw it), people from my high school saw it, and people from the high school I was supposed to go to saw it.
Because after the middle school I went to, you're supposed to go to a neighbor specific highschool, but since I was in a different area, I went to a different high school, and because I knew no one there that probably related to my social isolation, but back to the main topic. People from the high school I went to saw it, and people at the high school I was supposed to go to saw it.
So I was walking in the Campus building. A 4th year student says unprompted "Yo, you were the guy from the FitxFearless video", I said "yeah", tried to play it off, then we talked about the video for 2 minutes then he asked for my Instagram.
So I got niggas out of nowhere just recognizing my face and approaching me.
The thing is I went to the University in my City, meaning everyone in the same branch of high schools go to the same Uni. So I saw 3 people from my old High School interacted with me.
One time, I was walking up the stairs on Uni campus. Some guy who was in my History class in high school, was walking across in the opposite direction, he saw me, he said "Hi", I said "Hi" back, and he fucking glanced the other direction so hard. So it's obvious he saw the video.
Some other guy in my High School saw me, and he was in a group, so he saw me, he said "Yo what's up, long time no see. You're a tough guy now", while laughing, I played it off, handshaked him, then continued walking. I heard the girl in the group (Who also went to my high school) saying "Why were you laughing?", then I heard him respond with "The video."
Another time was a different guy from the high school I went to was riding a bike because I was walking to campus, on the crosswalk he saw me and said "Hello" when we passed. He had the face, so you knew he also saw the video.
2 Girls who went to the same middle school I went to who also are at the University I'm at, I know they saw the video because they were staring at me whilst walking down the sidewalk. Like glancing at me like, with intrigue and disgust.
Another guy who went to the middle school I went to (but not the same high school), just 5 minutes ago, I was walking down the Campus, he was walking down and we made hard eye constant whilst walking for like 30 seconds, because our minds were processing the same thing like "Shit, it's him."
My elementary school, my middle school, the high school I went to, the high school I was supposed to go to, my university campus because even random 4th year niggas know me, I'm exposed.
So it's not just online shit anymore, it's in real life. It's only been 3 weeks at Uni, news spreads like crazy, so a right now couple people recognize me on Campus, another month in, 2 months in, everyone recognizes me.
Imagine everyone at your University knowing you're an incel. It's a nightmare but I'm excited for some reason. I smiled whilst typing this post unconsciously. Maybe because even if it's negative attention, it's attention nonetheless, or because of the adrenaline.
Because maybe the controversy is fun. I'm a global public humiliation. Millions of views, people from my High School saw it, people from my brother's middle school were talking about it (my brother is NT and he's mtn, popular so he wasn't getting roasted for the video, he's still popular), random 4th year student like a wild pokemon comes out of the bush "Yo, you were the guy from the FitxFearless video." Another one from my old high school "yo, what's up." As time goes on, more people are going to just unprompted approach me because of the Fitx video.
Before I dreaded this, and feared this would happen, but I've come to accept it. My life is "officially ruined." My reputation is "officially ruined." There's no escaping it, the damage is already done, everyone in my area fucking knows. The 4th year student who I never saw before in my life, saw the Fitx video, and knew I had a Youtube Channel, so he was like "You have a youtube channel?", and I said "Yeah, it's self improvement content."
Before I was thinking about dropping out, because I thought "There's no chance I'm getting a job, might as well drop out and try to go all in on trying to become self employed", but I want to stay in University because I want to play this game.
If I drop out to try to go all in the non-traditional path, I won't see any of the people at University, but that's boring. If my life is over, I want to view it as a game.
I want to see what happens. I want to know what will happen when the entire University will eventually recognize me from the Fitx video. There's people I went to middle school with who go to my University. There's people who I went to high school with who go to my University. What will happen when I encounter all of them?
My 3 options, are rotting, hiding, and head on confrontation. I could have got super depressed over the viral humiliation and rotted or roped. I could try to hide but a random 4th year student who I never saw before can recognize my face and approach me out of nowhere. Just in 3 weeks, it's been like 7 - 8 people in literal real life who've recognized or interacted with me based off the fitx video, not to mention the millions of views it's generated so it's over, I can't hide for shit. The last choice is head on confrontation.
So I'll confront the situation head on. I'll go to Uni, I'll go to events, clubs (as in things like chess club, boxing club, not the night clubs I'm a fucking virgin), and I'll see what happens. My life is genuinely over. I'm short, ugly, autistic, and I'm a public embarrassment for millions to see. Why not see it as a game and see what happens next?
So people from my Elementary School saw it, people from my middle school (the same middle school my brother went to saw it), people from my high school saw it, and people from the high school I was supposed to go to saw it.
Because after the middle school I went to, you're supposed to go to a neighbor specific highschool, but since I was in a different area, I went to a different high school, and because I knew no one there that probably related to my social isolation, but back to the main topic. People from the high school I went to saw it, and people at the high school I was supposed to go to saw it.
So I was walking in the Campus building. A 4th year student says unprompted "Yo, you were the guy from the FitxFearless video", I said "yeah", tried to play it off, then we talked about the video for 2 minutes then he asked for my Instagram.
So I got niggas out of nowhere just recognizing my face and approaching me.
The thing is I went to the University in my City, meaning everyone in the same branch of high schools go to the same Uni. So I saw 3 people from my old High School interacted with me.
One time, I was walking up the stairs on Uni campus. Some guy who was in my History class in high school, was walking across in the opposite direction, he saw me, he said "Hi", I said "Hi" back, and he fucking glanced the other direction so hard. So it's obvious he saw the video.
Some other guy in my High School saw me, and he was in a group, so he saw me, he said "Yo what's up, long time no see. You're a tough guy now", while laughing, I played it off, handshaked him, then continued walking. I heard the girl in the group (Who also went to my high school) saying "Why were you laughing?", then I heard him respond with "The video."
Another time was a different guy from the high school I went to was riding a bike because I was walking to campus, on the crosswalk he saw me and said "Hello" when we passed. He had the face, so you knew he also saw the video.
2 Girls who went to the same middle school I went to who also are at the University I'm at, I know they saw the video because they were staring at me whilst walking down the sidewalk. Like glancing at me like, with intrigue and disgust.
Another guy who went to the middle school I went to (but not the same high school), just 5 minutes ago, I was walking down the Campus, he was walking down and we made hard eye constant whilst walking for like 30 seconds, because our minds were processing the same thing like "Shit, it's him."
My elementary school, my middle school, the high school I went to, the high school I was supposed to go to, my university campus because even random 4th year niggas know me, I'm exposed.
So it's not just online shit anymore, it's in real life. It's only been 3 weeks at Uni, news spreads like crazy, so a right now couple people recognize me on Campus, another month in, 2 months in, everyone recognizes me.
Imagine everyone at your University knowing you're an incel. It's a nightmare but I'm excited for some reason. I smiled whilst typing this post unconsciously. Maybe because even if it's negative attention, it's attention nonetheless, or because of the adrenaline.
Because maybe the controversy is fun. I'm a global public humiliation. Millions of views, people from my High School saw it, people from my brother's middle school were talking about it (my brother is NT and he's mtn, popular so he wasn't getting roasted for the video, he's still popular), random 4th year student like a wild pokemon comes out of the bush "Yo, you were the guy from the FitxFearless video." Another one from my old high school "yo, what's up." As time goes on, more people are going to just unprompted approach me because of the Fitx video.
Before I dreaded this, and feared this would happen, but I've come to accept it. My life is "officially ruined." My reputation is "officially ruined." There's no escaping it, the damage is already done, everyone in my area fucking knows. The 4th year student who I never saw before in my life, saw the Fitx video, and knew I had a Youtube Channel, so he was like "You have a youtube channel?", and I said "Yeah, it's self improvement content."
Before I was thinking about dropping out, because I thought "There's no chance I'm getting a job, might as well drop out and try to go all in on trying to become self employed", but I want to stay in University because I want to play this game.
If I drop out to try to go all in the non-traditional path, I won't see any of the people at University, but that's boring. If my life is over, I want to view it as a game.
I want to see what happens. I want to know what will happen when the entire University will eventually recognize me from the Fitx video. There's people I went to middle school with who go to my University. There's people who I went to high school with who go to my University. What will happen when I encounter all of them?
My 3 options, are rotting, hiding, and head on confrontation. I could have got super depressed over the viral humiliation and rotted or roped. I could try to hide but a random 4th year student who I never saw before can recognize my face and approach me out of nowhere. Just in 3 weeks, it's been like 7 - 8 people in literal real life who've recognized or interacted with me based off the fitx video, not to mention the millions of views it's generated so it's over, I can't hide for shit. The last choice is head on confrontation.
So I'll confront the situation head on. I'll go to Uni, I'll go to events, clubs (as in things like chess club, boxing club, not the night clubs I'm a fucking virgin), and I'll see what happens. My life is genuinely over. I'm short, ugly, autistic, and I'm a public embarrassment for millions to see. Why not see it as a game and see what happens next?
