If a GF is 100% not something you will get, to give up you need closure more then anything, I think... Which you won't get
Not a smooth one at least.
It's easy for an average attractive normie, for example, that has had his fun when he was a teenager, and has been in relationships as an adult, to suddenly be hit with the reality that 2020s women aren't worth it (He got cheated on or whatever) and go the "MGTOW" (What it is on paper) direction, and completely give up on women, and live his life. He had his fun while it lasted. Cool.
He had his closure.
But for you and people like us, you can't have any "goodbye" to something you never had to begin with. Something you always WANTED and still do.
And it's fucking painful.
I truly hope you ascend, but If I can be honest, the years of isolation, and not having a girlfriend to love, have sex with, have fun with, whatever, takes its toll on you.
Ascending is good, but it comes a point where I believe that it won't make you as happy as a teenager would in his first relationship. You are mentally scarred from being romantically/sexually alone for your whole life...
I don't know... Shit is fucking rough, dude