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I don't know why but for as long as I've been conscious, patterns that others deemed normal made me spill over with rage. When girls were treated better than boys, when I got treated unfairly for no reason just because I'm a boy and I could take it. So many niche things I could yap for an eternity but let me show you guys a video that made me relive this intense feeling in my body.
View: https://www.youtube.com/shorts/VRqlRC_WMfw
don't know how to embed this shit but...
At first glance this video makes you think that the guy talking is the asshole but for me it was an instant shot in my nerves. Opening the comments, seeing how delusional and stupid the people were and the video playing on repeat while I was stuck thinking. It just absolutely disgusted me for some reason and the reason it digusted me became clear in an instant. I've been blackpilled my entire life. I could see the unfairness from the get go. My mother always told me that I was weird in a sense that I was different to other boys. I had the privelege of being cute when I was small (everybody is cute) but like I carried that cuteness to the age of like 10. I had every plot developing action with girls handed to me on a plate. Girls would approach me, play with me, touch me, be embarrassed around me, talk about me, let me get away with full blown autism (literally made excuses for me when others did the exact same dumb shit just so I can remain pure and cute) like it was crazy. It was a cheat code. But I never let myself get carried away never abused my power in a sense. I never engaged seriously. People are the most honest when they're kids. And I was the center of the most pure feelings of girls at the most honest time of our lives. So I got to experience something others would die for. Now I'm deformed because of chemo (always had cancer which was unnoticable, but it changed my bone structure as I got older n shiii I'm short now and my face is distorted but I'm blessed with health so all praise to Allah). I have to tell you my religion saves me from mental illness because in this cursed world I do not seek blessing (because the most beautiful things only exist in heaven) I seek health and peace so I'm good with being alone and I'm not bitter. Went off on a tangent everytime I begin to write I have so many Ideas in my head and wonder if I can capture them all in a single paragraph I hate that feeling of thinking only you could understand somehing. You guys are tough you guys have been through so much and keep enduring you guys think and exchange ideas. I like it here. I wanted to ask you guys something. If you guys were to ascend would you guys still be blackpilled? I would be. I wouldn't really marry anyone anymore with all the things I've been through because every girl is the same. I've been on both sides I've played the game on many routes and I've seen what the losers look like and felt what the losers felt. I hate it. And I won't participate anymore. No more players from me. Love you guys !!!!
View: https://www.youtube.com/shorts/VRqlRC_WMfw
don't know how to embed this shit but...
At first glance this video makes you think that the guy talking is the asshole but for me it was an instant shot in my nerves. Opening the comments, seeing how delusional and stupid the people were and the video playing on repeat while I was stuck thinking. It just absolutely disgusted me for some reason and the reason it digusted me became clear in an instant. I've been blackpilled my entire life. I could see the unfairness from the get go. My mother always told me that I was weird in a sense that I was different to other boys. I had the privelege of being cute when I was small (everybody is cute) but like I carried that cuteness to the age of like 10. I had every plot developing action with girls handed to me on a plate. Girls would approach me, play with me, touch me, be embarrassed around me, talk about me, let me get away with full blown autism (literally made excuses for me when others did the exact same dumb shit just so I can remain pure and cute) like it was crazy. It was a cheat code. But I never let myself get carried away never abused my power in a sense. I never engaged seriously. People are the most honest when they're kids. And I was the center of the most pure feelings of girls at the most honest time of our lives. So I got to experience something others would die for. Now I'm deformed because of chemo (always had cancer which was unnoticable, but it changed my bone structure as I got older n shiii I'm short now and my face is distorted but I'm blessed with health so all praise to Allah). I have to tell you my religion saves me from mental illness because in this cursed world I do not seek blessing (because the most beautiful things only exist in heaven) I seek health and peace so I'm good with being alone and I'm not bitter. Went off on a tangent everytime I begin to write I have so many Ideas in my head and wonder if I can capture them all in a single paragraph I hate that feeling of thinking only you could understand somehing. You guys are tough you guys have been through so much and keep enduring you guys think and exchange ideas. I like it here. I wanted to ask you guys something. If you guys were to ascend would you guys still be blackpilled? I would be. I wouldn't really marry anyone anymore with all the things I've been through because every girl is the same. I've been on both sides I've played the game on many routes and I've seen what the losers look like and felt what the losers felt. I hate it. And I won't participate anymore. No more players from me. Love you guys !!!!
