In friend groups, all my life, I have always been the odd one out. The one I’m in now is no exception. They all have each other, they’re so tightly knit, they prefer the company over each other than mine. I kind of just exist, and tend to go unnoticed. Two of the friends I was sort of closest to ended up getting girlfriends, and now they no longer talk to me. In fact, I don’t even think I want them to talk to me even if they tried. All I can think of is them cuddled up next to their partners as they view my texts in their gfs bed. And as we’re getting older I know soon they will settle down. And I might not ever hear from them except for once every few months, while they go on to raise children. One of my them is even moving in with his gf in June even though they’ve been dating for less than a year. It makes me sick. She was a virgin when he met her too, her first everything, meaning she’s probably not hypergamous and most likely won’t end up leaving him. I HATE normoids so fucking much. Being around them only brings me pain and misery. I’ve distanced myself and haven’t texted anyone in two days. I deleted discord and Instagram. I give up on everyone. I’m sure they won’t even care. They have their whole lives ahead of them. I think what gets to me most is that there is no reasoning for my life at all. I was assigned no particular purpose. I am suffering - for what? I don’t even want a girlfriend, I think being in a relationship is cuckoldry at this point. Yet I still mald whenever I see couples. I think my only fulfillment would to be going full ER, but I’m too much of a pussy I’d probably chicken out. If I had to choose a place to do it I’d probably do an amusement park of some kind, where all sorts of families and couples go to have a day of fun. I’d love to destroy it. I’d love to take it away from them all. I’m so sick of this. I feel so rejected in my day to day to day life. kek
