even if rickvanderhammer is really sick or not it made me realize something

[ghostcell]

we can all just get sick out of nowhere and die or be stuck rotting at home or the hospital... i mean i had it last summer where i was hospitalized for 3 weeks with tubes stuck in every orifice of my body on life support. it was terrible, in such a situation you are literally hoping it can just be over (either dying instantly or curing instantly). instead of it waking me up to live my life "carpe diem", it just put me into a spiral of depression where i locked myself inside for the rest of the year. I literally spend at least 15 hours per day behind a screen, PC or PS4 and I can't take it anymore. 

even if u are suicidal at least should be thankful for being in good health, because it would be even worse if u are stuck in a hospital bed or at home (literally stuck, not just being a shut-in NEET). Inb4 someone saying but I wanna die anyway, it's a truecel dream blabla. I would say go fucking try it. Yeah you might wanna die, but you don't wanna be stuck in a hospital with tubes stuck in your dick, throat, wearing diapers and being on life support unable to move or say anything not knowing how long you will even live on.

i think i should take a break from this board, get back to the gym, join a sport, and travel the fucking world or something before I get sick and literally can't do shit anymore, because it will happen at some point for everyone. i'll try to limit this place to max 15-30 minutes per day, it's really taking a toll on me. i don't want to get diagnosed with cancer and look back at my life spending all my time behind my PC anymore. i don't even care if i keep failing like i have already done for the past 22 almost 23 years, atleast i was out there trying. Even if I stay home behind my PC at least I could learn a skill... drawing, language, cooking... whatever

and i don't even think i should do it all for women. the more i hear about them the more i hate them anyway, constantly seeing black pill in everything is making me paranoid and jaded at the same time and it's not helping anything. its 2018, there's tons of possibilities even for the worst NEETS, if u are in a western country. Hell, I even heard a indian colleague at my work last year about how much fun he had as a teen in fucking India of all places, driving motorbikes across the country. there's things to do, that will be better than rotting at home, even if u are depressed, ugly, or a subhuman piece of shit. 

i don't mean it as a hate message to incels, because actually some of the people i met here are the nicest i met so far. like i said before it feels like the best genetics get given to the worst people most of the times. but i'm about to graduate a 22 year old virgin and can count the interesting life experiences i had on one hand, i honestly need to get out there more. it's a good thing reddit permabanned r/incels and mgtow, so I won't have to go there again. But I just turned this board into my new timesink. I spent almost 100 hours here on this account since i joined 29 december, and probably another 50-100 from mobile not being logged in, in just a month. I will be severely limiting my posts here, I don't know how I will improve my life yet but it can't go on like this. 

Even if I stay incel I should at least take advantage of the fact that I am healthy now and have some money. How many people in the world right now would kill to be in my shoes? And what am I doing with it? There's people fucking dying in the hospital, my age, right now. There's people my age who have to walk through a field of landmines to get a bottle of water. There's people who can't even GET water. I don't wanna complain anymore, I don't wanna be a bitch anymore. Everything posted here about black pill is true, I have seen it IRL and will probably continue to see it, but so fucking what? I can't constrict myself any longer. I need to make more out of my life, even if I keep failing 100 more times trying to do so. 


So if you don't see my posts anymore or I take a long time to respond, sorry about that. I am probably still at home for the next couple of months but at least I will try to figure out if I really cannot find anything better to do with my time.

 

[Deleted member]

no, there isn’t anything that is better than rotting at home for a genuinely ugly man. most ugly men are forced into that situation due to the constant discrimination they face in the outside world.

why does everyone that decide to “quit” this place (then come back 3 days later) make huge suicide note style walls of text as if they were some huge pillar of community?

 

[ghostcell]

no, there isn’t anything that is better than rotting at home for a genuinely ugly man. most ugly men are forced into that situation due to the constant discrimination they face in the outside world.

why does everyone that decide to “quit” this place (then come back 3 days later) make huge suicide note style walls of text as if they were some huge pillar of community?

you are 14, u can't even say anything about that yet. I have almost 10 years more of experience and if I could go back I would have tried different things. 

if u honestly believe there are ZERO ugly men living happy lives, u are deluding yourself and setting yourself up for failure. 

life can be lived in a lot of different ways, but rotting is not a life anymore. even if u rot at home u should still feel priviliged that its even an option for you to do so. 90% of the world lives in fucking poverty and has to do shit you take for granted every day.

realize that if u get sick, u can't even go ER anymore or choose to end it. if ur sick youre FUCKED, ur stuck in the hospital without a say whatsoever as what happens to you but to wait out your time like @rickvanderhammer. when i was sick i was drifting in and out of consciousness for days, waiting for surgeries, waiting for life support, with tubes attached to me at every time. at some point i had 3 mobile machines on me i had to take everywhere at all times, and they started beeping every hour, 24hr per day, when the nurse had to refuel it. don't take your health for granted

don't really care what you think about that. i'm glad i didn't find this board at 14 is all i could say. even though i failed every attempt atleast i was out there trying. if i got sad, at least i felt SOMETHING. i havent felt any emotions whatsoever for the past 6 months, i can't go on like this.

and i never said i would QUIT, i just want to severely limit the time i spend here. starting now, im going out, to the gym. don't care what happens anymore. a LOT is better than sitting at home.

 

[Deleted member]

you are 14, u can't even say anything about that yet. I have almost 10 years more of experience and if I could go back I would have tried different things. 

if u honestly believe there are ZERO ugly men living happy lives, u are deluding yourself and setting yourself up for failure. 

life can be lived in a lot of different ways, but rotting is not a life anymore. even if u rot at home u should still feel priviliged that its even an option for you to do so. 90% of the world lives in fucking poverty and has to do shit you take for granted every day.

realize that if u get sick, u can't even go ER anymore or choose to end it. if ur sick youre FUCKED, ur stuck in the hospital without a say whatsoever as what happens to you but to wait out your time like @rickvanderhammer. when i was sick i was drifting in and out of consciousness for days, waiting for surgeries, waiting for life support, with tubes attached to me at every time. at some point i had 3 mobile machines on me i had to take everywhere at all times, and they started beeping every hour, 24hr per day, when the nurse had to refuel it. don't take your health for granted

don't really care what you think about that. i'm glad i didn't find this board at 14 is all i could say. even though i failed every attempt atleast i was out there trying. if i got sad, at least i felt SOMETHING. i havent felt any emotions whatsoever for the past 6 months, i can't go on like this.

and i never said i would QUIT, i just want to severely limit the time i spend here. starting now, im going out, to the gym. don't care what happens anymore. a LOT is better than sitting at home.

those ugly men are bluepilled. delusional. i don’t think anyone who has been exposed to and actually believed in the blackpill can ever revert to that state, and what’s more, that’s not really genuine happiness. try taking drugs if you want that kind of life.

sure, there must be folk that have “harder” lives than that having to work and all, but that’s not something that can make you happy. incels are unhappy because their needs are not being met, and in that kind of situation, nothing other than getting sex and affection can make you happy. being happy is not a conscious choice, it’s something that happens naturally if your life is working out.

well if u like going outside and think ur 10 years of trying wasn’t enough go ahead for another 10 years

 

[Incel_Dikshit]

you are 14, u can't even say anything about that yet. I have almost 10 years more of experience and if I could go back I would have tried different things. 

if u honestly believe there are ZERO ugly men living happy lives, u are deluding yourself and setting yourself up for failure. 

life can be lived in a lot of different ways, but rotting is not a life anymore. even if u rot at home u should still feel priviliged that its even an option for you to do so. 90% of the world lives in fucking poverty and has to do shit you take for granted every day.

realize that if u get sick, u can't even go ER anymore or choose to end it. if ur sick youre FUCKED, ur stuck in the hospital without a say whatsoever as what happens to you but to wait out your time like @rickvanderhammer. when i was sick i was drifting in and out of consciousness for days, waiting for surgeries, waiting for life support, with tubes attached to me at every time. at some point i had 3 mobile machines on me i had to take everywhere at all times, and they started beeping every hour, 24hr per day, when the nurse had to refuel it. don't take your health for granted

don't really care what you think about that. i'm glad i didn't find this board at 14 is all i could say. even though i failed every attempt atleast i was out there trying. if i got sad, at least i felt SOMETHING. i havent felt any emotions whatsoever for the past 6 months, i can't go on like this.

and i never said i would QUIT, i just want to severely limit the time i spend here. starting now, im going out, to the gym. don't care what happens anymore. a LOT is better than sitting at home.

Jfl if you think that he is 14 he is somewhere in his 20s.

But this is true what you say i sometimes think when im depressed that i should be thankfull that i can walk that i can see that i havea high iq. There are people who have it far worse. Its not all about face tbh

 

[Deleted member 2119]

I guess I really need to do that as well....

I am already chronically ill and this is the reason I have depression and why I'm here in the first place.

At least my diet is high in antioxidants and fiber so it makes any other illnesses unlikely but I need to get rid of my chains.....

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I am at a point where self hatred is a drug to me. Self loathing became addicting and I basically don't want to improve my situation at this point in time.Rotting is always the more comfortable solution and depression can really destroy you..... But it's somehow not right

 

[Weed]

Get money and travel to Thailand or all around Asia.. This would be your best trip

 

[Deleted member 2119]

I am currently waiting for my 5th medically necessary surgery and I hope I can live normally again.....

 

[ghostcell]

Get money and travel to Thailand or all around Asia.. This would be your best trip

i don't really even think i wanna travel there anymore for girls. for the trip i look more forward to just hanging out with friends (even though never met the guys from incels.is, but whatever) than actually getting laid. Feeling normal, feeling like I have somewhere I can belong. Chilling with a coconut cocktail on the beach with the boys having a few cold ones, and just enjoying life and being healthy and young.

update: got rejected by a girl on tinder singapore lol she literally said i was too fucking weird XD this was like an older roastie with 0 education, job, hobbys, and she kept talking about how many dates she went on lol and ex boyfriends she had. pretty funny actually. even over there they have unlimited white guy options anyway. 

it's not about women anymore, that's a failed quest anyway. best case i can be some girls betabucks or white fetish. my personality is incompatible with 99.9999999% of population, and at 5/10 I cannot really expect to find anyone I am also attracted to to like me. Yeah ideally I would want to find a girl who honestly loves me and will stay at my side but let's be honest it is very unlikely for a guy like me. im too blackpilled for my own good, maybe if i was a bluepilled normie there would be hope but I don't want to put a mute on myself and change my personality just to get a girl.

i'm mostly meaning to improve my life in other ways though. maybe get into motorbiking or hiking or something. mountain climbing sounds pretty cool. i also always wanted to learn drawing and singing so maybe i'll try that, still working on the details and im not sure. But I just don't wanna spend all of my time inside browsing the same website continuously anymore. today i spent the whole day at the gym playing basketball with guys I never met. I feel like they didn't dislike me and I got to play a bit at least. It's not really what I'm looking for yet but it was a start of getting out of my shell atleast.

edit: some other ideas i had were a summer language course abroad or charity work. at least i would be doing something positive with my life, but i don't know about it yet

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I guess I really need to do that as well....

I am already chronically ill and this is the reason I have depression and why I'm here in the first place.

At least my diet is high in antioxidants and fiber so it makes any other illnesses unlikely but I need to get rid of my chains.....

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I am at a point where self hatred is a drug to me. Self loathing became addicting and I basically don't want to improve my situation at this point in time.Rotting is always the more comfortable solution and depression can really destroy you..... But it's somehow not right

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Sorry for the late response, good that you fixed your diet. If u dont mind me asking what chronical illness do you have? I feel sorry to hear that... shit hand to get dealt, but I hope it doesnt affect your life too much

 

[RREEEEEEEEE]

we can all just get sick out of nowhere and die or be stuck rotting at home or the hospital.

A truecel's dream.

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Inb4 someone saying but I wanna die anyway, it's a truecel dream blabla.

Oh darnit, you already beat me to it. Alas I don't mean dying under bad circumstances. Just death in general is.

 

[ghostcell]

A truecel's dream.

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Oh darnit, you already beat me to it. Alas I don't mean dying under bad circumstances. Just death in general is.

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Watch this and tell me you would rather be in that state than what you have now

[video=youtube]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0k8sKX6IeMs[/video]

edit at your edit: if u get REALLY sick u cant even choose to end it. that's what I felt in the hospital. even if I wanted to die at some points, there was nothing I could do. it was just sit there and take the treatment and wait it out. u cant even really die if ur sick, its just a long battle downhill

 

[RREEEEEEEEE]

A truecel's dream.

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Oh darnit, you already beat me to it. Alas I don't mean dying under bad circumstances. Just death in general is.

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Watch this and tell me you would rather be in that state than what you have now
[video=youtube]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0k8sKX6IeMs[/video]
edit at your edit: if u get REALLY sick u cant even choose to end it. that's what I felt in the hospital. even if I wanted to die at some points, there was nothing I could do. it was just sit there and take the treatment and wait it out. u cant even really die if ur sick, its just a long battle downhill

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What happened to you anyway?

 

[Ikinder]

no, there isn’t anything that is better than rotting at home for a genuinely ugly man. most ugly men are forced into that situation due to the constant discrimination they face in the outside world.

why does everyone that decide to “quit” this place (then come back 3 days later) make huge suicide note style walls of text as if they were some huge pillar of community?

Dude, you aren't even ugly it's starting to piss me off as I keep asking myself "What the fuck do you know about the troubles we go through?".

 

[Deleted member]

Dude, you aren't even ugly it's starting to piss me off as I keep asking myself "What the fuck do you know about the troubles we go through?".

i should ask you that if you’re not a midget

 

[TheRealChincel]

WTF is this bluepill nonsense? Go and try to live out in the world as an ugly man without money. You’ll be crawling back here in days. I don’t care about Jose struggling in Mexico or Mutumbo in Nigeria, I suffer greatly everyday. Had to close my fucking shade because a 5/10 was fauxflirting with me. I’m a goddamn spectacle even in my co-op.

 

[Ikinder]

i should ask you that if you’re not a midget

The difference is I'm not speaking for "midgets" as though I actually am one as you keep doing every fucking post for ugly men, you shortcels need to learn your place and stick to threads meant for you not ones aimed as us ugly men.

 

[Deleted member 2119]

i don't really even think i wanna travel there anymore for girls. for the trip i look more forward to just hanging out with friends (even though never met the guys from incels.is, but whatever) than actually getting laid. Feeling normal, feeling like I have somewhere I can belong. Chilling with a coconut cocktail on the beach with the boys having a few cold ones, and just enjoying life and being healthy and young.

update: got rejected by a girl on tinder singapore lol she literally said i was too fucking weird XD this was like an older roastie with 0 education, job, hobbys, and she kept talking about how many dates she went on lol and ex boyfriends she had. pretty funny actually. even over there they have unlimited white guy options anyway. 

it's not about women anymore, that's a failed quest anyway. best case i can be some girls betabucks or white fetish. my personality is incompatible with 99.9999999% of population, and at 5/10 I cannot really expect to find anyone I am also attracted to to like me. Yeah ideally I would want to find a girl who honestly loves me and will stay at my side but let's be honest it is very unlikely for a guy like me. im too blackpilled for my own good, maybe if i was a bluepilled normie there would be hope but I don't want to put a mute on myself and change my personality just to get a girl.

i'm mostly meaning to improve my life in other ways though. maybe get into motorbiking or hiking or something. mountain climbing sounds pretty cool. i also always wanted to learn drawing and singing so maybe i'll try that, still working on the details and im not sure. But I just don't wanna spend all of my time inside browsing the same website continuously anymore. today i spent the whole day at the gym playing basketball with guys I never met. I feel like they didn't dislike me and I got to play a bit at least. It's not really what I'm looking for yet but it was a start of getting out of my shell atleast.

edit: some other ideas i had were a summer language course abroad or charity work. at least i would be doing something positive with my life, but i don't know about it yet

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Sorry for the late response, good that you fixed your diet. If u dont mind me asking what chronical illness do you have? I feel sorry to hear that... shit hand to get dealt, but I hope it doesnt affect your life too much

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KCTN ( I got a cone shaped cornea from too much eye rubbing) Yeah it sucks tbh.. They can fix it but the treatment process is so freaking long

 

[Deleted member 2901]

Almost there, OP.

 

[ghostcell]

WTF is this bluepill nonsense? Go and try to live out in the world as an ugly man without money. You’ll be crawling back here in days. I don’t care about Jose struggling in Mexico or Mutumbo in Nigeria, I suffer greatly everyday. Had to close my fucking shade because a 5/10 was fauxflirting with me. I’m a goddamn spectacle even in my co-op.

how is it bluepilled? i said it's not even about women anymore. so what you suffer, i hear a lot of it here. yeah life sucks dick as an ugly male in the west if you let it. not every ugly guy is crying all the time about it. i also suffer, i would very much like to have friends or a girlfriend, or even 3rd party validation. but u cant compare this type of suffering to literal physical suffering on a daily basis, if u say u can u have never experienced it. 

and for everyone i hear that says they don't care about people struggling in 3rd world shitholes i would honestly implore u to just go see it with ur own eyes once in ur life. if push comes to shove, i bet nobody here would be actually willing to give up the life we lead here.

not being sick and not living in a poverty and war stricken country, having internet and food already means you are at least top 5-10% priviliged people in the world.

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KCTN ( I got a cone shaped cornea from too much eye rubbing) Yeah it sucks tbh.. They can fix it but the treatment process is so freaking long

damn that sucks...... i hope it gets better as the recovery goes on though, maybe even if it takes long, 3 months from now it will already feel very different than now

 

[Deleted member 2119]

how is it bluepilled? i said it's not even about women anymore. so what you suffer, i hear a lot of it here. yeah life sucks dick as an ugly male in the west if you let it. not every ugly guy is crying all the time about it. i also suffer, i would very much like to have friends or a girlfriend, or even 3rd party validation. but u cant compare this type of suffering to literal physical suffering on a daily basis, if u say u can u have never experienced it. 

and for everyone i hear that says they don't care about people struggling in 3rd world shitholes i would honestly implore u to just go see it with ur own eyes once in ur life. if push comes to shove, i bet nobody here would be actually willing to give up the life we lead here.

not being sick and not living in a poverty and war stricken country, having internet and food already means you are at least top 5-10% priviliged people in the world.

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damn that sucks...... i hope it gets better as the recovery goes on though, maybe even if it takes long, 3 months from now it will already feel very different than now

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Yeah I have to treat my next eye and then I am done but it's really bad for my mental health rn

 

[ghostcell]

What happened to you anyway?

ruptured my appendix, and surgery got extremely rare complications. entire upper body was filled with abcesses and antibiotics didn't work. on top of that, my stomach and bowels literally stopped working for an entire week so i just kept vomiting the bile my liver was producing (probably over 2 liters per day). on top of that my bladder got hit with abcesses so i couldnt pee, had to get a cathether. then life support tubes in my arm pumping food into my heart artery else i would die, and IV for fluids and antibiotics (fluids 10 times antibiotics 8 times per day) and a tube in my throat so my stomach could recover. i think i had a tube in every hole except my ass and ears at some point, for about a week. and then a few more IV's like I said. it was honestly hell. i was not allowed to eat nor drink for over a week

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Almost there, OP.

i don't care if u call me that i know i'm far from it. in fact, i wish i could be completely bluepilled, or is it mixed black and blue on purpose?

 

[Deleted member 2901]

i don't care if u call me that i know i'm far from it. in fact, i wish i could be completely bluepilled, or is it mixed black and blue on purpose?

You're partially blackpilled and still partially bluepilled. For your own interest it would probably be better to swallow the entirely black one, it saves a lot of hurt.

 

[Deleted member]

The difference is I'm not speaking for "midgets" as though I actually am one as you keep doing every fucking post for ugly men, you shortcels need to learn your place and stick to threads meant for you not ones aimed as us ugly men.

a midget is the EPITOME of unattractiveness (ugliness). do you live in the same universe as i? do you know what ugly means? what are you even going on about???

 

[ghostcell]

You're partially blackpilled and still partially bluepilled. For your own interest it would probably be better to swallow the entirely black one, it saves a lot of hurt.

i would rather get hurt trying than feel nothing in my life at all, like i do now, at this point

 

[TheRealChincel]

D

how is it bluepilled? i said it's not even about women anymore. so what you suffer, i hear a lot of it here. yeah life sucks dick as an ugly male in the west if you let it. not every ugly guy is crying all the time about it. i also suffer, i would very much like to have friends or a girlfriend, or even 3rd party validation. but u cant compare this type of suffering to literal physical suffering on a daily basis, if u say u can u have never experienced it. 

and for everyone i hear that says they don't care about people struggling in 3rd world shitholes i would honestly implore u to just go see it with ur own eyes once in ur life. if push comes to shove, i bet nobody here would be actually willing to give up the life we lead here.

not being sick and not living in a poverty and war stricken country, having internet and food already means you are at least top 5-10% priviliged people in the world.

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“Ugly guys can be happy”, “oh it’s not as bad as X or Y!”, that’s bluepilled. I suffer in physical pain everyday and am constantly ostracized by people. This isn’t just “wimminz” to me and even if it was, it’s all about subjective suffering. Drink the Kool-Aid if you’d like but I’m not buying it. Society has neutered men, most of them are crying but put on a brave face. The remainder are living in Dreamtime.

 

[ghostcell]

Yeah I have to treat my next eye and then I am done but it's really bad for my mental health rn

the easiest way to kill your mood and confidence is having physical problems... i remember how depressed i was with acne. i even spent weeks crying about the fact that i had glasses since i got bullied for it so much...

 

[Ikinder]

a midget is the EPITOME of unattractiveness (ugliness). do you live in the same universe as i? do you know what ugly means? what are you even going on about???

Being short doesn't FUCKING mean you're ugly, it means you're too childlike AKA non-dominant for women to take you seriously, educate yourself with some fucking research studies and a god damn English dictionary you need em.

 

[TheRealChincel]

i would rather get hurt trying than feel nothing in my life at all, like i do now, at this point

Ok, Icarus.

 

[Deleted member 2119]

ruptured my appendix, and surgery got extremely rare complications. entire upper body was filled with abcesses and antibiotics didn't work. on top of that, my stomach and bowels literally stopped working for an entire week so i just kept vomiting the bile my liver was producing (probably over 2 liters per day). on top of that my bladder got hit with abcesses so i couldnt pee, had to get a cathether. then life support tubes in my arm pumping food into my heart artery else i would die, and IV for fluids and antibiotics (fluids 10 times antibiotics 8 times per day) and a tube in my throat so my stomach could recover. i think i had a tube in every hole except my ass and ears at some point, for about a week. and then a few more IV's like I said. it was honestly hell. i was not allowed to eat nor drink for over a week

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i don't care if u call me that i know i'm far from it. in fact, i wish i could be completely bluepilled, or is it mixed black and blue on purpose?

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Do you still have complications from it or are you completely recovered? I bet you have a high risk for this happening again (Better be careful)

 

[OTaKu_WarrIOr_N]

Almost there, OP.

 

[Deleted member]

Being short doesn't FUCKING mean you're ugly, it means you're too childlike AKA non-dominant for women to take you seriously, educate yourself with some fucking studies and a god damn English dictionary you need em.

ugly = unattractive, and at this height with this face no female in this world will find me attractive. this argument is so ignorant that i’m not about to continue it any further

 

[Deleted member 2119]

the easiest way to kill your mood and confidence is having physical problems... i remember how depressed i was with acne. i even spent weeks crying about the fact that i had glasses since i got bullied for it so much...

Yeah it's pretty brutal. I am glad that I fixed my acne because this was also horrible.But I also think that many people have it much worse.Some people have cystic fibrosis or huntingtons disease. There is even a blind bodybuilder who makes youtube videos & has a gf

I mean I got unlucky but it's good that it can be fixed and it's not deadly

 

[ghostcell]

Ugly guys can be happy”, “oh it’s not as bad as X or Y!”, that’s bluepilled. I suffer in physical pain everyday and am constantly ostracized by people. This isn’t just “wimminz” to me and even if it was, it’s all about subjective suffering. Drink the Kool-Aid if you’d like but I’m not buying it. Society has neutered men, most of them are crying but put on a brave face. The remainder are living in Dreamtime.

it literally still isn't as bad as those things mentioned before. if I would ask 15000 people living in Liberia if they would want to trade places with you, I'm willing to bet almost all of them would be willing to do so, so it's hard to rationalize it being worse than your position.

im not saying it doesnt suck. anyone that even knows of this board has a terrible life, and those of us here posting a lot have the worst lives of all. i don't know your situation and im not trying to judge you on it. i just find it very unlikely to believe that I am talking to someone on an internet board who literally has a situation worse than terminally ill or almost dying people or those living in extreme poverty.

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Do you still have complications from it or are you completely recovered? I bet you have a high risk for this happening again (Better be careful)

i think i'm completely recovered. had stomach cramps for like 4 months but it finally subsided, im still a bit skinnier than i used to be but at least im alive and running. well, they managed to remove the infected and ruptured appendix, i actually wish they would have made a picture. the surgeon said he never saw anything like this, it was like 4 times the size of a normal appendix with all of the abcesses, bile and goo stuck on it. so i'm glad they even managed to get it out of me. 

so since it's gone i can't get it again. im not sure if it will affect other bowel problems but i dont believe so, most people live pretty normal lives after appendectomy. 

a bigger luring problem i have is that I got a herniated disc aswell last year due to my height, and it fixed naturally after a couple months (with a lot of morphine to keep me from extreme pain). but this can always come back at any time since i didnt get surgery as i was too young and they said it will heal naturally.

 

[TheRealChincel]

it literally still isn't as bad as those things mentioned before. if I would ask 15000 people living in Liberia if they would want to trade places with you, I'm willing to bet almost all of them would be willing to do so, so it's hard to rationalize it being worse than your position.

im not saying it doesnt suck. anyone that even knows of this board has a terrible life, and those of us here posting a lot have the worst lives of all. i don't know your situation and im not trying to judge you on it. i just find it very unlikely to believe that I am talking to someone on an internet board who literally has a situation worse than terminally ill or almost dying people or those living in extreme poverty.

This isn’t the Pain Olympics, I don’t see people on here saying they have the absolute worst existence on Earth. I’m unable to be accepted by society so I live in isolation. Yes, there’s a comfort or at least a lack of material deprivation that I experience but mentally, I’m worse off than many third-worlders. Why? Because I’m not fighting for survival to preoccupy me or have religion to console me. Accept that ugly males are very unlikely to experience happiness, accept the blackpill.

 

[ghostcell]

This isn’t the Pain Olympics, I don’t see people on here saying they have the absolute worst existence on Earth. I’m unable to be accepted by society so I live in isolation. Yes, there’s a comfort or at least a lack of material deprivation that I experience but mentally, I’m worse off than many third-worlders. Why? Because I’m not fighting for survival to preoccupy me or have religion to console me. Accept that ugly males are very unlikely to experience happiness, accept the blackpill.

i know, but I feel we have at least some control over our mental state. more control, than people in shit tier countries have over their survival. that's all. i know it still sucks balls to be in isolation, no friends, gf, life, things to do. i know exactly how it feels. and ugly guys are unlikely to experience happiness - how can they? the odds are stacked against ugly guys in particular. but that doesn't mean that there is LITERALLY nothing in life to enjoy. it might be a LOT harder to find, but it's not a reason to completely give up and be in misery every single hour of your existence. I mean, 90% of people live in fight to survive or get out of their dire situation, they are preoccupied. Then those in the west, 5-10% of world, then 80%+ are fucking normies with normal lives where everything they do is given in bite sized chunks so they don't ever have to think for themselves. The other ugly ones are too dumb to realize their situation. Then there's the incels, smart enough to realize we are completely fucked, being blackpilled so even making it harder to be happy. Yeah, it's completely fucked and unlikely to improve, but I atleast believe there are some ways to feel better at least SOME of the time

 

[VLÖ]

I love it when people say "hurr look at dem guys in africa who are shit BE HAPPY LOLOLO XDDD"

First of all, fuck you.

Secondly, it's all relative. You could try all you want to force yourself by repeating "my life is better than X" over and over again, but it's just useless. You CANNOT compare your life if you haven't been through it yourself, this is all feel-good horseshit that's just designed to make you shut up.

Imagine if you will telling black people in the 1700s "Heyyy, sucks that you're a slave and all... but hey better be a slave here than in Africa amirite? Be happy fucker." That's what all this amounts to. It's just stupid empty comparisons that have no meaning.
I could tell myself that I'm living better than some rice farmer in Asia, but what would that change? I'm still stuck with a shitty life, my life hasn't improved at all. All I'm doing is deluding myself into believing something else. And honestly, that rice farmer is probably contempt with his life, he's happy because he doesn't know that people in the West are living better than him. If anything, I should be ENVYING him since he probably has a wife and kids anyway.

The real solution would be not repeating some bullpill [sic] mantra but rather erase the thought of Chad and womyn entirely. Ignorance is bliss, but some doublethink certainly fucking isn't.

And of course there's the moral standpoint that you're bending down and accepting all the shit that's done to you and you're not even going to bat an eye. In which case congrats, you've become a slave to society. And if you think that will make you happy, well good luck.

 

[RREEEEEEEEE]

i just kept vomiting the bile my liver was producing (probably over 2 liters per day).

I would lose my mind if this happened to me and proceed as a mentalcel the rest of my life. That's disgusting..