Venting Even if by a miracle a girl gave me a chance, I wouldn't be able to keep our relationship

[PHp]

I've just realized it and I'm not even sad, just completely numb. It's like somewhere deep inside my soul a little glimmer of hope was still alive but this realization just obliterated it. I don't know why I became a mentalcel, maybe because I missed social interactions during young age or because I'm a sperg, but it doesn't matter now to be honest. What matters is that because of it I just can't interact with people to the point of not even having friends, I'm doomed to have this chronic loneliness 'till the day I die.

Back to the title, this is why I wouldn't be able to keep our relationship, even when I create a gf in my head I struggle to come up with conversations, absolutely pathetic I know. Maybe it is better for a mentalcel to really die as a truecel, it'd be an agonizing frustration to have any taste of what we're missing and not be able to keep it because we're fucked in the head

 

[78980n]

even when I create a gf in my head I struggle to come up with conversations

Same, then my head just goes to situations where I get rejected or embarrassed by women, as if I'm having masochist fantasies.

 

[Romello Gaghan 2]

Do you think you struggle with conversations because you're afraid you wouldn't have enough life experience to go off of? That's my problem, among others.

 

[PHp]

Do you think you struggle with conversations because you're afraid you wouldn't have enough life experience to go off of? That's my problem, among others.

that's one of the reasons too, but it's mostly a mental block because of not knowing how to keep a conversation going

 

[PHp]

Do you think you struggle with conversations because you're afraid you wouldn't have enough life experience to go off of? That's my problem, among others.

that's one of the reasons too, but it's mostly a mental block because of not knowing how to keep a conversation going

 

[Romello Gaghan 2]

that's one of the reasons too, but it's mostly a mental block because of not knowing how to keep a conversation going

This might sound kinda bluepilled, but if you start getting involved with stuff: sports, organized groups etc., making conversation in and of itself will not be so much of an issue.

 

[mcfroggy]

I have the same problem op, it helped listening to podcasts/morning shows, you get a feeling for the normal rhythm of a conversation, and also the normie 'appropiate' way of responding to things. Practicing is usually useless at this point if you can't make up convos in your head. GL man

 

[Deleted member 1042]

It’s one thing to get a gf, but it’s another to sustain. That’s why the redpill used to be popular. It was for normans who were too beta. It’s why they suggest implementing dread game. Make other women interested and attracted to you to keep her on her toes. This whole thing is fucked. This whole damn thing is a scam.

 

[zspook]

I've just realized it and I'm not even sad, just completely numb. It's like somewhere deep inside my soul a little glimmer of hope was still alive but this realization just obliterated it. I don't know why I became a mentalcel, maybe because I missed social interactions during young age or because I'm a sperg, but it doesn't matter now to be honest. What matters is that because of it I just can't interact with people to the point of not even having friends, I'm doomed to have this chronic loneliness 'till the day I die.

Back to the title, this is why I wouldn't be able to keep our relationship, even when I create a gf in my head I struggle to come up with conversations, absolutely pathetic I know. Maybe it is better for a mentalcel to really die as a truecel, it'd be an agonizing frustration to have any taste of what we're missing and not be able to keep it because we're fucked in the head

This is what has always kept me from initiating. Every time I think of talking to a female I ask myself what the end result is. Even if she agreed, it would be the most awkward, shortest 'relationship ever. I have nothing to say of interest to her. If I start on my hobbies and what I like doing it (i.e. the relationship) would be over in less than 5 minutes due to boredom.

Also, having spent this long alone I honestly have no way of showing affection or any form of love. I can't bond with others, specially women. I have lived my entire life without any form of experience in that regard. Something others have learned by trial and error during school years.

It's porn for me until the end. JFL

 

[ionlycopenow]

Doomer meme is Reddit trash