SuicideFuel [Essay] Why, in great detail, as an autistic manlet I despise and resent society.

[ScornedStoic]

Having regular sexual relations is imperative for a normal healthy sexuality to develop and for proper untwisted mind to progress.

This is the darkest and hardest to swallow blackpill for me. Because I was born as subhuman trash--just because I was born autistic and shorter than 80% of males--I have been denied a normal and crucial part of an adolescent's life.

Not only have I permanently missed out on what are arguably most normal people's happiest part of their lives, which they will continue to reminisce about in perpetuity--but the effects of missing out on this crucial developmental stepping stone will echo into the crippled remainder of my life.

I am now past adolescence and am living as an adult. School was long enough ago that everyone from it has long moved on. I wish I could, but the scars are souvenirs on the shelf of life that you never lose. I have to stare at them every day, and they stare back at me.

You can not claim to be incel if you have not tried everything. Being the nice guy. Trying to be alpha. Cold approaching. Looksmaxxing. Being rejected for the 50th time in a row. If all of these don't apply to you you can just hug a toaster in a bathtub for all I care, because you'll never understand my profound pain.

All I can do now is sit and wither away. Watch the faint sounds of what were once the last shards of me be absorbed by the silence. Anyone who thinks this is just about sex is either drunk on human affirmation or is purposefully burying their head in the sand to avoid realizing the pain they are too weak to handle.

But I grow weak too. Soon it will be a decade since the hormones started flooding into my brain forcing me to be high on delusions of grandeur focused on finding my one solace. Even longer since I started desperately requiring human affirmation and affection I would never receive.

This experience distorts the mind. The milestones you are biologically meant to pass, you are doomed to converge on and be unable to move past. You are left stuck with the sexuality of a post pubescent child with the mind of a scarred adult having endured a life of pure bitter malice--and sometimes, what I can't tell is worse--being completely disregarded.

I can't help but utterly despise and resent the society and human species I was born into. I can't help but think those who don't are either the reason I hate everyone, or too unbelievably stupid to understand what's going on.

Love and human affection--and the affirmation that comes with it--are as necessary as food and water. You wither without either. Yet two classes exist: The two groups men and women unfairly get to have what I need while the second class, those who are born wrong, are told not to complain of being starved.

Why does nature exist the way it does? Why does the female get to select what makes men have worthy of lives of significance, and why are some men born right while others are born wrong? It is intrinsically, absolutely, and irredeemably unfair.

I'm no fool. I know there's no overarching scheme to it. There isn't a god. We live in a completely indifferent universe--the world is not cruel, it is apathetic. Nature just simply developed this way, and men and women are both controlled by their faulty biology driven by evolution.

I just wish I would have been born right so I could have participated in it, and more importantly, never realized any of this.

 

[AncapFAG]

think instead that I am the highest in class and with the most beautiful face but still remain a mentalcelcel delayed, while the alpha guy on duty is retruded with distant eyes but with status lol

 

[Ap0calypse]

In order for one to thrive, one must suffer

 

[ScornedStoic]

In order for one to thrive, one must suffer

This reasoning only works to a point. Being beaten up may motivate you to be stronger, but being stabbed in the heart and lungs will not improve anything.

 

[Incellectual]

If you don't hate society as a mentally ill or autistic person or manlet you are a cuck tbh. Society hates males with these traits.

 

[ihaveno1]

fuck society mass devastation needs to happen.

 

[ScornedStoic]

If you don't hate society as a mentally ill or autistic person or manlet you are a cuck tbh. Society hates males with these traits.

Exactly.

 

[bakadesu]

Tldr?

 

[Cybersex is our hope]

Having regular sexual relations is imperative for a normal healthy sexuality to develop and for proper untwisted mind to progress.

This is the darkest and hardest to swallow blackpill for me. Because I was born as subhuman trash--just because I was born autistic and shorter than 80% of males--I have been denied a normal and crucial part of an adolescent's life.

Not only have I permanently missed out on what are arguably most normal people's happiest part of their lives, which they will continue to reminisce about in perpetuity--but the effects of missing out on this crucial developmental stepping stone will echo into the crippled remainder of my life.

I am now past adolescence and am living as an adult. School was long enough ago that everyone from it has long moved on. I wish I could, but the scars are souvenirs on the shelf of life that you never lose. I have to stare at them every day, and they stare back at me.

You can not claim to be incel if you have not tried everything. Being the nice guy. Trying to be alpha. Cold approaching. Looksmaxxing. Being rejected for the 50th time in a row. If all of these don't apply to you you can just hug a toaster in a bathtub for all I care, because you'll never understand my profound pain.

All I can do now is sit and wither away. Watch the faint sounds of what were once the last shards of me be absorbed by the silence. Anyone who thinks this is just about sex is either drunk on human affirmation or is purposefully burying their head in the sand to avoid realizing the pain they are too weak to handle.

But I grow weak too. Soon it will be a decade since the hormones started flooding into my brain forcing me to be high on delusions of grandeur focused on finding my one solace. Even longer since I started desperately requiring human affirmation and affection I would never receive.

This experience distorts the mind. The milestones you are biologically meant to pass, you are doomed to converge on and be unable to move past. You are left stuck with the sexuality of a post pubescent child with the mind of a scarred adult having endured a life of pure bitter malice--and sometimes, what I can't tell is worse--being completely disregarded.

I can't help but utterly despise and resent the society and human species I was born into. I can't help but think those who don't are either the reason I hate everyone, or too unbelievably stupid to understand what's going on.

Love and human affection--and the affirmation that comes with it--are as necessary as food and water. You wither without either. Yet two classes exist: The two groups men and women unfairly get to have what I need while the second class, those who are born wrong, are told not to complain of being starved.

Why does nature exist the way it does? Why does the female get to select what makes men have worthy of lives of significance, and why are some men born right while others are born wrong? It is intrinsically, absolutely, and irredeemably unfair.

I'm no fool. I know there's no overarching scheme to it. There isn't a god. We live in a completely indifferent universe--the world is not cruel, it is apathetic. Nature just simply developed this way, and men and women are both controlled by their faulty biology driven by evolution.

I just wish I would have been born right so I could have participated in it, and more importantly, never realized any of this.

My mind is distorted too and I hate normie society that doesn't give a shit about me. I'm aspiecel obv

 

[Mainländer]

Agreed that people who didn't try seriously and aren't repugnantly ugly (sub3) aren't incel. Mentalcel at best.

Nature is terrible but cucks who freed women are even worse.

 

[WillyBlogAndFriends]

How tall are you, age and what ethnicity?

 

[SchrodingersDick]

Brutal truth. Being short/ugly/Missing out on youth is not a trivial matter. That shit is life and death.

You have a high verbal IQ.. you write beautifully. just thought I would tell you that. I, on the other hand, am bad at words.

Also, I wholeheartedly agree with you about height. There is nothing more important than just being tall.. it sounds ridiculous to The average person to tell them that the length of your leg bones is a matter of life and death.. but it really is. Anyone average or above cannot fathom the pain of being a small male. Much less a blackpilled small male. It works this way in every corner of nature, with every mammal species. The largest males get all the food and all the pussy.. they live the most fulfilling lives. That’s why I preach fighting success theory.. it’s a raw distillation of everything the blackpill has taught us.. you’re only blackpilled once you realize that murder is the ultimate aphrodisiac. Then, and only then, will you understand the world around you, unadulterated and unfiltered.

If you’re born male, you have a 90+% chance of having a shitty, unfulfilled life as a second class citizen, starving, while you watch the others feast.

 

[rahultmnt]

you only get around 80 years to see and breathe in this world... out of a possible million plus years... you can end it by roping now or you can stick around and see whats gonna happen... its only a short time

 

[ScornedStoic]

Tldr?

Just read the post. It's not like you have a Becky waiting for you.

My mind is distorted too and I hate normie society that doesn't give a shit about me. I'm aspiecel obv

I'm sorry you understand

Agreed that people who didn't try seriously and aren't repugnantly ugly (sub3) aren't incel. Mentalcel at best.

Nature is terrible but cucks who freed women are even worse.

Mentalcels can be incels, sometimes the truestcels. If you have Asperger's for example you're fucked unless you're 10/10 Chad.

But those who haven't tried scores of times are fakecel. Elliot Rodger for example.

I don't things were any better in earlier times. The female's priorities in mate selection have always been irredeemably faulty. At best you had some girl for forcefully married to you, which I'm not interested in-I want genuine love. But that's only reserved for certain kinds of males, of which I'm not.

How tall are you, age and what ethnicity?

176 cm, 20 y.o., and I'm half German half Canadian.

 

[ScornedStoic]

Brutal truth. Being short/ugly/Missing out on youth is not a trivial matter. That shit is life and death.

You have a high verbal IQ.. you write beautifully. just thought I would tell you that. I, on the other hand, am bad at words.

Also, I wholeheartedly agree with you about height. There is nothing more important than just being tall.. it sounds ridiculous to The average person to tell them that the length of your leg bones is a matter of life and death.. but it really is. Anyone average or above cannot fathom the pain of being a small male. Much less a blackpilled small male. It works this way in every corner of nature, with every mammal species. The largest males get all the food and all the pussy.. they live the most fulfilling lives. That’s why I preach fighting success theory.. it’s a raw distillation of everything the blackpill has taught us.. you’re only blackpilled once you realize that murder is the ultimate aphrodisiac. Then, and only then, will you understand the world around you, unadulterated and unfiltered.

If you’re born male, you have a 90+% chance of having a shitty, unfulfilled life as a second class citizen, starving, while you watch the others feast.

Very high IQ, and thank you. I try to write well, I feel it is one of my only skills.

The only things I disagree with is that I think the incels are the minority, not the majority, at least in the first world. That's just my experience. And I don't know how much murder would help anything. But everything else you said was genius IQ

 

[SchrodingersDick]

Very high IQ, and thank you. I try to write well, I feel it is one of my only skills.

The only things I disagree with is that I think the incels are the minority, not the majority, at least in the first world. That's just my experience. And I don't know how much murder would help anything. But everything else you said was genius IQ

True. men who are by definition incel are the minority. BUT. The majority of men would be incels if it weren’t for the dual mating strategy. Most men are only non-incel because they save used up hoes once they’re past their primes and get starfish sex every now and then.. marriage, by definition, is indistinguishable from prostitution. They’re the same thing. You’re paying for sexual access. doesn’t mean she wants you. I’d venture to say that the overwhelming majority of wives don’t even LIKE their husbands, they just do Olympic-tier mental gymnastics to convince themselves they do. They make up fake qualities and pretend like it has any bearing on attraction.. oike “he’s a good listener, provider, has a good sense of humor, work ethic, etc, etc.. The vast majority of men do not have any primal sex appeal.. once marriage stops being a thing, The only option left is harems.. the vast majority of men will then be truly incel.

 

[ThereIsYourGod]

176 cm

wtf really? I am 182 and I know my height never was an issue. Our difference is 6cm and you think THIS make you a second class? You have an ugly face or you are a mentalcel

 

[Actually Autistic]

I’m 6 foot 5. Life never “happened” for me. I mean yea a few Filipino guys were like “oh you’re so tall you should pay basketball” but my height has never been advantageous on dating sites nor IRL

 

[EyesAreSoCold]

Having regular sexual relations is imperative for a normal healthy sexuality to develop and for proper untwisted mind to progress.

This is the darkest and hardest to swallow blackpill for me. Because I was born as subhuman trash--just because I was born autistic and shorter than 80% of males--I have been denied a normal and crucial part of an adolescent's life.

Not only have I permanently missed out on what are arguably most normal people's happiest part of their lives, which they will continue to reminisce about in perpetuity--but the effects of missing out on this crucial developmental stepping stone will echo into the crippled remainder of my life.

I am now past adolescence and am living as an adult. School was long enough ago that everyone from it has long moved on. I wish I could, but the scars are souvenirs on the shelf of life that you never lose. I have to stare at them every day, and they stare back at me.

You can not claim to be incel if you have not tried everything. Being the nice guy. Trying to be alpha. Cold approaching. Looksmaxxing. Being rejected for the 50th time in a row. If all of these don't apply to you you can just hug a toaster in a bathtub for all I care, because you'll never understand my profound pain.

All I can do now is sit and wither away. Watch the faint sounds of what were once the last shards of me be absorbed by the silence. Anyone who thinks this is just about sex is either drunk on human affirmation or is purposefully burying their head in the sand to avoid realizing the pain they are too weak to handle.

But I grow weak too. Soon it will be a decade since the hormones started flooding into my brain forcing me to be high on delusions of grandeur focused on finding my one solace. Even longer since I started desperately requiring human affirmation and affection I would never receive.

This experience distorts the mind. The milestones you are biologically meant to pass, you are doomed to converge on and be unable to move past. You are left stuck with the sexuality of a post pubescent child with the mind of a scarred adult having endured a life of pure bitter malice--and sometimes, what I can't tell is worse--being completely disregarded.

I can't help but utterly despise and resent the society and human species I was born into. I can't help but think those who don't are either the reason I hate everyone, or too unbelievably stupid to understand what's going on.

Love and human affection--and the affirmation that comes with it--are as necessary as food and water. You wither without either. Yet two classes exist: The two groups men and women unfairly get to have what I need while the second class, those who are born wrong, are told not to complain of being starved.

Why does nature exist the way it does? Why does the female get to select what makes men have worthy of lives of significance, and why are some men born right while others are born wrong? It is intrinsically, absolutely, and irredeemably unfair.

I'm no fool. I know there's no overarching scheme to it. There isn't a god. We live in a completely indifferent universe--the world is not cruel, it is apathetic. Nature just simply developed this way, and men and women are both controlled by their faulty biology driven by evolution.

I just wish I would have been born right so I could have participated in it, and more importantly, never realized any of this.

Well written, that's how I feel as well

 

[ScornedStoic]

True. men who are by definition incel are the minority. BUT. The majority of men would be incels if it weren’t for the dual mating strategy. Most men are only non-incel because they save used up hoes once they’re past their primes and get starfish sex every now and then.. marriage, by definition, is indistinguishable from prostitution. They’re the same thing. You’re paying for sexual access. doesn’t mean she wants you. I’d venture to say that the overwhelming majority of wives don’t even LIKE their husbands, they just do Olympic-tier mental gymnastics to convince themselves they do. They make up fake qualities and pretend like it has any bearing on attraction.. oike “he’s a good listener, provider, has a good sense of humor, work ethic, etc, etc.. The vast majority of men do not have any primal sex appeal.. once marriage stops being a thing, The only option left is harems.. the vast majority of men will then be truly incel.

This is completely accurate

wtf really? I am 182 and I know my height never was an issue. Our difference is 6cm and you think THIS make you a second class? You have an ugly face or you are a mentalcel

Inceltears level IQ. You're basically 6ft. GTFO fakecel

Well written, that's how I feel as well

Pass the rope brother

 

[The End]

It's kind of weird that when you're young no one tells you that some people just lose at everything. I was ubiquitously told I could be whoever or whatever I wanted to be. I guess that is meant to be empowering, but damn.. it's a hard blow when you discover how untrue it is.

But on the other hand at least we get to die someday.

 

[Deleted member 12355]

I'll take you on your word that you're incel, but if you're 176 cm then that's likely not the only or even the primary reason you're being rejected. It's probably your face.

Nicely written. Bet cucktears wont screenshot this anytime soon

 

[Deleted member 14490]

It is over, friend.

I'll take you on your word that you're incel, but if you're 176 cm then that's likely not the only or even the primary reason you're being rejected. It's probably your face.

Nicely written. Bet cucktears wont screenshot this anytime soon

No, man. I am 175cm and it is beyond over for me without facial surgeries.

 

[ScornedStoic]

It's kind of weird that when you're young no one tells you that some people just lose at everything. I was ubiquitously told I could be whoever or whatever I wanted to be. I guess that is meant to be empowering, but damn.. it's a hard blow when you discover how untrue it is.

But on the other hand at least we get to die someday.

Literally this. We need to stop telling kids that they can do anything. The gravity of all my dreams crashing down is part of what sent me into a depression.

Giga IQ post

I'll take you on your word that you're incel, but if you're 176 cm then that's likely not the only or even the primary reason you're being rejected. It's probably your face.

Nicely written. Bet cucktears wont screenshot this anytime soon

It's my autism and height. Otherwise I might be normie material.