SuicideFuel Escortmaxxing is worse than any other cope

[Ghost Rider]

First of all if you're not low-inhib (and 99% of us are not, because if that was the case we would be a pack of redpilled cucks) sorry but you just can't even lie to yourself while you're escortmaxxing.
Yesterday I tried it again after more than a year and the experience made me feel more miserable than any other shit in the past months, it's one of the worst feelings that you can get, breaks your soul:
-I can't lie to myself, I KNOW that I'm paying like a cuck for something that is my right to have, from the moment I text the girl I'm already feeling awful for begging for something that I DESERVE.
-The girl arrives, the first thing she does is give you the classic surprised/annoyed look like she's seeing a zombie for the first time, doesn't matter how good you're dressed or the dozens of showers that you got etc etc, this point actually deserves more detail
-getting "ready" for a whore is such a miserable and suicide-inducing experience that almost makes you want to throw up, imagine dressing nice and shit for a fucking slut that you're paying for, not for a date or a nice moment with a chick, you're preparing yourself for a whore that probably gave a guy a blowjob just minutes before arriving at the motel, you mean NOTHING to her.
-She doesn't like you because as a manlet ethnic sub 5 nobody in this planet will like you, so the first thing she does is ask for the money, you pay and that's it she'll start with the "Ok my love u look SOOOO good wow you're sooooo big I like youuu so muuch" the thing is I KNOW IT'S ALL BULLSHIT, I know it, I cannot eveb get a fucking erection because A: I know that everything is a fucking lie and I'm not low inhib enough to believe and enjoy a lie, I can't, and B: I'm not even making her my bitch, no, like a good cuck I paid first, I got dressed nice like a chump and acted like a stupid nice guy, I can't even call her slut because while she would allow chad to treat her like one, not me, she doesn't even let me touch her hair because she hates me, and again, I cannot even get an erection with this whirldwind of ideas, which all of them are true.
then she goes, and the worst part of this date is that she has a genuine and happy look once it's over, the only moment of honesty happens when she's leaving and saying "BYE!" after laughing to my face because I can't get hard.
Never again, never fucking again
I also forgot one of the worst feelings that you get once she's gone, you remember the softness of her body, like needles in your brain, torturing you that night and the night after making you remember how soft and warm she felt, how nice her scent was, how good her hair all over your face felt, and how you will never have it, not truly from a woman that wants to do it with you, no, never, and you have to live with that torture for the rest of the week, month etc.

 

[Stupid Clown]

Brutal. I can't imagine how mentally damaging it is to know your first sexual experience was payed. Could never do it.

 

[tandoorichickencel]

Tbh i think it’s about finding the right whore for you.
It’s also about you knowing what you want.
Like say if you want to degrade the foid.
Or say you want to piss in her mouth or make her eat your ethnic asshole.
There’s some ways you can navigate it.
I’d recommend you think again about not escortcelling

 

[Todd Thundercock]

Stop overthinking it. She's there to get fucked.

 

[Grodd]

Brutal. I can't imagine how mentally damaging it is to know your first sexual experience was payed. Could never do it.

 

[vigcookie_227oalgo]

Most brutal wall of text I have read today

 

[Sheldor]

First of all if you're not low-inhib (and 99% of us are not, because if that was the case we would be a pack of redpilled cucks) sorry but you just can't even lie to yourself while you're escortmaxxing.
Yesterday I tried it again after more than a year and the experience made me feel more miserable than any other shit in the past months, it's one of the worst feelings that you can get, breaks your soul:
-I can't lie to myself, I KNOW that I'm paying like a cuck for something that is my right to have, from the moment I text the girl I'm already feeling awful for begging for something that I DESERVE.
-The girl arrives, the first thing she does is give you the classic surprised/annoyed look like she's seeing a zombie for the first time, doesn't matter how good you're dressed or the dozens of showers that you got etc etc, this point actually deserves more detail
-getting "ready" for a whore is such a miserable and suicide-inducing experience that almost makes you want to throw up, imagine dressing nice and shit for a fucking slut that you're paying for, not for a date or a nice moment with a chick, you're preparing yourself for a whore that probably gave a guy a blowjob just minutes before arriving at the motel, you mean NOTHING to her.
-She doesn't like you because as a manlet ethnic sub 5 nobody in this planet will like you, so the first thing she does is ask for the money, you pay and that's it she'll start with the "Ok my love u look SOOOO good wow you're sooooo big I like youuu so muuch" the thing is I KNOW IT'S ALL BULLSHIT, I know it, I cannot eveb get a fucking erection because A: I know that everything is a fucking lie and I'm not low inhib enough to believe and enjoy a lie, I can't, and B: I'm not even making her my bitch, no, like a good cuck I paid first, I got dressed nice like a chump and acted like a stupid nice guy, I can't even call her slut because while she would allow chad to treat her like one, not me, she doesn't even let me touch her hair because she hates me, and again, I cannot even get an erection with this whirldwind of ideas, which all of them are true.
then she goes, and the worst part of this date is that she has a genuine and happy look once it's over, the only moment of honesty happens when she's leaving and saying "BYE!" after laughing to my face because I can't get hard.
Never again, never fucking again
I also forgot one of the worst feelings that you get once she's gone, you remember the softness of her body, like needles in your brain, torturing you that night and the night after making you remember how soft and warm she felt, how nice her scent was, how good her hair all over your face felt, and how you will never have it, not truly from a woman that wants to do it with you, no, never, and you have to live with that torture for the rest of the week, month etc.

brootal

 

[Ghost Rider]

Tbh i think it’s about finding the right whore for you.
It’s also about you knowing what you want.
Like say if you want to degrade the foid.
Or say you want to piss in her mouth or make her eat your ethnic asshole.
There’s some ways you can navigate it.
I’d recommend you think again about not escortcelling

Stop overthinking it. She's there to get fucked.

"I only want sex" No, I want a woman to have sex with me and me with her, like it's fucking supposed to be, I want to know that she wants it, if I know that it's not true then it's not different than jacking off, it's like I'm not there, at some point I can feel how I am floating like a ghost above my head, I'm not in my body and I cannot enjoy anything because I'm not there, but if I had a foid with me who loved me, I would be there as ME in my body, and not as a distant viewer.
Maybe it works for other incels who can block their brains about all this autistic shit at will, but sadly not for me.

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

Brutal. I can't imagine how mentally damaging it is to know your first sexual experience was payed. Could never do it.

 

[Darth Aries]

This is why I will never hire an escort. It feels cheap and isn’t true ascension. If my day doesn’t come, I will fucking die a virgin. My view on losing your virginity is too black and white for me to consider an escort. Also I’m too high inhib to even go to the store without getting a mild panic attack, let alone illegally fuck a whore for the first time. My anxiety wouldn’t allow my cock to get hard plus I’m broke.

 

[DefeatedIncel]

Idk, it sounds like a mental problem. You paid an escort to have a good time and you should try to enjoy every minute of it. Yeah they all do it for money and some of the acting is fake, but try to be present in the moment. Imagine that you are a pornstar and you are going to fuck this whore's brains out or something like that. I know it sounds like cope, but you should focus on the experience and how good you feel rather than overthinking about chad and shit.

 

[AlexDelarge]

Idk, it sounds like a mental problem. You paid an escort to have a good time and you should try to enjoy every minute of it. Yeah they all do it for money and some of the acting is fake, but try to be present in the moment. Imagine that you are a pornstar and you are going to fuck this whore's brains out or something like that. I know it sounds like cope, but you should focus on the experience and how good you feel rather than overthinking about chad and shit

I could not say this better myself you summed my thoughts.

Another thought some people in some countries have to pay for bottled water. I have free water in abundance where I live. Of course its not nearly same amount of money but its same principle. You need something, there is no other way to get it so you spend money on the thing you need and not overthing spending your money.

 

[Simba]

Ya paid so it’s about you, not about her.