tired of this gay ass earth
i am suppose to be normaL? being born in circumstances like that? with mother stupid whore and father drunken schizophrenic? no wonder i am autistic
when i visited my many friends in their houses they were all normal, clean, both parents at home, smelled nice
my apartment? filthy old communistic piece of shit, only single mother at home so no time to clean or cook good, or raise me in the right way
i will never be normal
no point in living anymore took me too much time to realize but i iwll nenver be normal
sometimes i look at my life and just laugh, i understand life is unfair, but for me it is unfair by how unfair it actually is
not one positive thing in my life
EVEN IF LOOKS REALY DIDNT MATTER LIKE NORMIES SAY I STILL WOULD BE FUCKED BECAUSE I AM NOT NORMAL< MY FAMILY ARE POOR RETARDS PATHOLOGY = NOT NORMAL = THE LOWEST LAYER OF SOCIETY
that's the problem
i spent most of my childhood and teenage years with normal people and i compared myself to them, i shouldnt do that, because the fight was never fair, they have normal parents, they are normal, i am not, i should instead compare myself with lowest layer of society, drug addicts, homeless and criminals, because that was my destiny, after first 18 years of my life the natural output is either suicide or drug addiction (not weed but heroine), yet i was thinking im just like the rest of them while im clearly not
even if i could find a girlfriend what would i do??????
take her to my ruined poor filthy apartment? introduce her to my fucked up schizophrenic father? or my whore idiot mother? or my drunken grandfather that used to go and talk with my friend after drinking alcohol making us all uncomfortable?
lets be honest i never had any chance at life
pointless
i could waste another few years on lying to myself there is still hope but im too tired to do it
goodbye lets hope next life is better this one is enough im going to fukcing kill myself bye
i am suppose to be normaL? being born in circumstances like that? with mother stupid whore and father drunken schizophrenic? no wonder i am autistic
when i visited my many friends in their houses they were all normal, clean, both parents at home, smelled nice
my apartment? filthy old communistic piece of shit, only single mother at home so no time to clean or cook good, or raise me in the right way
i will never be normal
no point in living anymore took me too much time to realize but i iwll nenver be normal
sometimes i look at my life and just laugh, i understand life is unfair, but for me it is unfair by how unfair it actually is
not one positive thing in my life
EVEN IF LOOKS REALY DIDNT MATTER LIKE NORMIES SAY I STILL WOULD BE FUCKED BECAUSE I AM NOT NORMAL< MY FAMILY ARE POOR RETARDS PATHOLOGY = NOT NORMAL = THE LOWEST LAYER OF SOCIETY
that's the problem
i spent most of my childhood and teenage years with normal people and i compared myself to them, i shouldnt do that, because the fight was never fair, they have normal parents, they are normal, i am not, i should instead compare myself with lowest layer of society, drug addicts, homeless and criminals, because that was my destiny, after first 18 years of my life the natural output is either suicide or drug addiction (not weed but heroine), yet i was thinking im just like the rest of them while im clearly not
even if i could find a girlfriend what would i do??????
take her to my ruined poor filthy apartment? introduce her to my fucked up schizophrenic father? or my whore idiot mother? or my drunken grandfather that used to go and talk with my friend after drinking alcohol making us all uncomfortable?
lets be honest i never had any chance at life
pointless
i could waste another few years on lying to myself there is still hope but im too tired to do it
goodbye lets hope next life is better this one is enough im going to fukcing kill myself bye
