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Despite my parents being normal I have the stereotypical curry genetics to an extreme.
I am a short (5'6") curry with a heavily gynoid (feminine) fat distribution. At one point I couldn't wear men's clothes normally because it was tight regardless of what size I got. I have gynecomastia as well as what they call steatopygia. I lost some weight and now I can get away with wearing men's trousers 2/3 sizes larger than my shirt size.
My digestive system is poor and every time I eat meat my body smells for the whole day. No amount of perfume removes it and it stays like that for pretty much the whole day, even when I shower and brush my teeth numerous times. The only way it stays normal is if I become almost entirely vegetarian. Gym is also to no avail. Sure my performance is improved by like 15% (or 40% on steroids) but that's about it. I can either be fat or skinny-fat, I just can't build muscle. A few days ago I ruptured my tendon while doing the chest press, I can't exercise my arms or shoulders now. As a kid I broke numerous bones, including the lower parts of my spine which completely destroyed my frame.
On top of all this I am neurodivergent and have poor social skills. I am suffering from depression for almost 3 years now. The only thing I have is decent hair and an slightly above-average IQ (which is tainted by me being non-NT).
This month I started steroids, on top of aromatase inhibitors (estrogen blockers), as well as liver support and iron. I feel slightly better when I started but not now. Next month I am also adding an SERM and vitamin D to the mix, as well as something for digestion and some nervous system depressant. I know it's all cope, but what else can I do? I don't enjoy any long-term hobbies I used to have. I don't even want to ascend even if I could because I am disgusted by myself and no-one should have to put up with me.
I am a short (5'6") curry with a heavily gynoid (feminine) fat distribution. At one point I couldn't wear men's clothes normally because it was tight regardless of what size I got. I have gynecomastia as well as what they call steatopygia. I lost some weight and now I can get away with wearing men's trousers 2/3 sizes larger than my shirt size.
My digestive system is poor and every time I eat meat my body smells for the whole day. No amount of perfume removes it and it stays like that for pretty much the whole day, even when I shower and brush my teeth numerous times. The only way it stays normal is if I become almost entirely vegetarian. Gym is also to no avail. Sure my performance is improved by like 15% (or 40% on steroids) but that's about it. I can either be fat or skinny-fat, I just can't build muscle. A few days ago I ruptured my tendon while doing the chest press, I can't exercise my arms or shoulders now. As a kid I broke numerous bones, including the lower parts of my spine which completely destroyed my frame.
On top of all this I am neurodivergent and have poor social skills. I am suffering from depression for almost 3 years now. The only thing I have is decent hair and an slightly above-average IQ (which is tainted by me being non-NT).
This month I started steroids, on top of aromatase inhibitors (estrogen blockers), as well as liver support and iron. I feel slightly better when I started but not now. Next month I am also adding an SERM and vitamin D to the mix, as well as something for digestion and some nervous system depressant. I know it's all cope, but what else can I do? I don't enjoy any long-term hobbies I used to have. I don't even want to ascend even if I could because I am disgusted by myself and no-one should have to put up with me.
