
GenEtic-MaLfuncti0n
Cursed to be alone. Put me out of my misery.
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- Jun 10, 2019
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Apart from being a KHHV, It fucking hurts to not have any friends irl. I am 23 and I've never been to the movies with anyone before, so i decided to go to the movies by myself and I remember being the only one in the theatre watching "it chapter 2" in the dark. I felt lonely and hopeless. I also watched "one piece stampede" and i remember laughing by myself and there was no one to laugh with. Since am going to be alone for the rest of my life, i want to at least know why? I want God to tell me why he wants me to be alone for the rest of my life. I want to know why am being punished for doing nothing wrong. I never harmed anyone, I never stole, I never manipulated women, I never killed anyone, so why am I paying the price of an irredeemable crime?. People that commit these crimes are locked away from society in a cage. There are men out there that kill women and they still have potential partners like bundy, why not me?, considering the fact that I've never hurt anyone. I feel like am already in hell because in hell your always alone. As for females, they were never even a part of my life, whenever i tried to talk to a girl, she'd pretty much be creeped out by me, and i've tried to come off as natural as possible, and some will look at my face and say "Your ugly." I've tried to reach out to people irl, but no one cares about me or gives me the time of the day. Am numbed by this loneliness, I've become emotionless due to the pain, i can't laugh, i can't feel joy, i have no one irl to spend time with, my heart has become cold. Is there really any point in living? Even if i decided to keep living, what family will i have when am old and all alone? I will probably be put in a nursing home with no one coming to visit me while I ldar. Who's going to bury me? I can only picture my life getting worse if I don't jump off this bridge and hopefully hit my head on a rock so i can be free. Seriously, What kind of life can you possibly live without sharing it with someone?
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