Just a thought. Being a disgusting, hairy, malnourished gutter dweller myself, I've come to almost appreciate my vileness as an antiaesthetic. My stink, my unshaven body, etc. About a decade ago I got into Ugly Bastard hentai and found myself sitting there like that Leo pointing "That's me!" meme. The only problem is there's not enough representation of short, small cocked men in UB porn, but still, for want of thrushes one eats blackbirds.
My disgustingness has become a source of sexual excitement. I love seeing prostitues and knowing the would never fuck me if I weren't paying them, but they need the money so they let me seizure on top of them, suck their tongues out of their mouths and souls out of their ass because they don't have many options, knowing they're repulsed by my very existence but swallow their pride and let me inside them anyway. I'm always polite to them but I had to giggle when one reacted with horror when I offered her some tea after staring into the cup and seeing the trash strewn around my place. I have fantasies about being rich someday or getting a mail order bride from some shit hole country. I would treat her nicely, as an exotic pet in my menagerie of interesting things, but a cute one who would never normally consider someone like me but wants to get out of where the fuck ever and send money back to her family and lets me squirt my nasty gremlin seed into her womb instead of someone she'd be more naturally attracted to.
You get to the point where you don't even want to improve even if you could, except perhaps financially to dangle that in front of the hoes. It becomes like a superpower where you delight in your own repulsiveness and no longer fret over it, that everyone has to play a part on the world stage and mine is the disgusting ugly bastard of hentai.
My disgustingness has become a source of sexual excitement. I love seeing prostitues and knowing the would never fuck me if I weren't paying them, but they need the money so they let me seizure on top of them, suck their tongues out of their mouths and souls out of their ass because they don't have many options, knowing they're repulsed by my very existence but swallow their pride and let me inside them anyway. I'm always polite to them but I had to giggle when one reacted with horror when I offered her some tea after staring into the cup and seeing the trash strewn around my place. I have fantasies about being rich someday or getting a mail order bride from some shit hole country. I would treat her nicely, as an exotic pet in my menagerie of interesting things, but a cute one who would never normally consider someone like me but wants to get out of where the fuck ever and send money back to her family and lets me squirt my nasty gremlin seed into her womb instead of someone she'd be more naturally attracted to.
You get to the point where you don't even want to improve even if you could, except perhaps financially to dangle that in front of the hoes. It becomes like a superpower where you delight in your own repulsiveness and no longer fret over it, that everyone has to play a part on the world stage and mine is the disgusting ugly bastard of hentai.
