I think I'm a nasty little subhuman. I do think I'm special, but not in a good way. I feel different to everyone around me, even other ugly men. Everyone else seems to know what to do at all times. Even other unattractive men seem motivated and ready for everything. Everyone IRL is a normalfag compared to me. Everyone seems to have aspirations, no matter how small.
I have none. The only reason I'm "going" to college is because of my dad. I haven't been to classes in a year and I'm going to fail this year and I just don't care. All I know is that I'm basically a NEET and I love every second of it. It's all I want to do.
I have yet to meet someone like me. During my school years I've never met someone who just doesn't care about anything. I'd often just leave the classroom right in front of teachers before an exam or I would stay at home for months instead of going to school without my parents knowing until the school eventually called them. I didn't care about the consequences. I was just happy to be home watching cartoons and playing vidya while my parents were at work thinking I'm at school. I remember hiding in the basement or walking around the neighborhood in the morning waiting for my parents to leave the house so I could stay at home while they're at work.
I remember school teachers saying how no other kid did what I did. I was constantly in trouble when I was a kid because of attendance and bad grades. Luckily my dad is a well connected man and he knows how to get things done. Without him I would have been kicked out of elementary school.
Other than that I'm also terrible with people. I have no social skills to speak of, I make bizarre mistakes all the time. I'm weird and autistic and weird things seem to happen to me all the time. I have no idea how adults do what they do, from paying bills to having a family or a job. I'm a subhuman in every sense of the word.
