Obviously I don't actually have multiple personalities, but it does feel like it sometimes.
I think it's because I have had so little actual life experiences. I've basically rotted since I was a child and I'm a grown ass man by now.
It's also the lack of social interaction. I lived in my head all my life, interacting with my own voice and thoughts or the internet.
So it feels like depending on my mood, another personality takes over. Most of the time I'm the depressed sack of shit. But sometimes I can endure bursts of extroversion when need be, almost like mad. And for example, I'm so shy and introverted, always have been, but when I was an alcoholic I used to go to uni drunk. Took several fucking tests drunk. Uhh, so many PTSD-incuding memories from moments like these. Never get drunk if you're a shy introvert, you'll be haunted for years and years. Especially since the old memories aren't replaced by new, positive or neutral memories, cause you just go through your routine and are alone all the time.
And there's other personalities depending on mood too. Feels like my response to certain things can be entirely different depending on mood. Though if I'm being honest 99% of the time I'm probably just the quiet loner who avoids everything, lazy and rushing home to rot.
Funny thing is, I could've been extroverted. I can see it, I can imagine it. As a very small kid I was really, really shy, but when I warmed up to the other kid I'd burst out in energy like a sperg and be super gregarious. But the world beat me down. School was just one bad experience after the over, no wonder I'm so quiet.
Nah, this thread is bullshit. I'm just indecisive and with no real opinions or convictions, combined that with a bad memory so I probably just have no idea what I'm talking about.
I think it's because I have had so little actual life experiences. I've basically rotted since I was a child and I'm a grown ass man by now.
It's also the lack of social interaction. I lived in my head all my life, interacting with my own voice and thoughts or the internet.
So it feels like depending on my mood, another personality takes over. Most of the time I'm the depressed sack of shit. But sometimes I can endure bursts of extroversion when need be, almost like mad. And for example, I'm so shy and introverted, always have been, but when I was an alcoholic I used to go to uni drunk. Took several fucking tests drunk. Uhh, so many PTSD-incuding memories from moments like these. Never get drunk if you're a shy introvert, you'll be haunted for years and years. Especially since the old memories aren't replaced by new, positive or neutral memories, cause you just go through your routine and are alone all the time.
And there's other personalities depending on mood too. Feels like my response to certain things can be entirely different depending on mood. Though if I'm being honest 99% of the time I'm probably just the quiet loner who avoids everything, lazy and rushing home to rot.
Funny thing is, I could've been extroverted. I can see it, I can imagine it. As a very small kid I was really, really shy, but when I warmed up to the other kid I'd burst out in energy like a sperg and be super gregarious. But the world beat me down. School was just one bad experience after the over, no wonder I'm so quiet.
Nah, this thread is bullshit. I'm just indecisive and with no real opinions or convictions, combined that with a bad memory so I probably just have no idea what I'm talking about.
