I've been thinking about this question a lot lately. I'm still in school, but only for 9 more months. When I was young, I always pictures myself going to school for the last day in my life. I'm pretty sure it's an extremely emotional moment.
I always disliked school. I was a bad student because I was lazy and on top of that socially anxious. Nevertheless, I passed every year and in only 6 months I'll have my final exams.
I don't know how to feel about that. On the one hand, I won't have the constant pressure of bad oral grades. The grade consists 50% of oral grades and of course they fucked up my grades. It's too late now anyways. I just want to pass the exams and leave school with a really bad GPA. Quite frankly, I'm a bit jealous. There are students with really good grades and I know that I could have been one of them.
Moreover, I won't be stuck in a room for almost the whole day with the same people that don't share my interests. I will not have to analyze stupid texts or remember facts that I don't need to know. By the way, almost every book/text we read is about racism and multiculturalism. I'm neither extreme right nor extreme left but what the fuck? German schools are really trying hard to manipulate kids.
I will also be able to hang around people that share my interests...if I find them.
And that's the doubt that I have. I am scared of being completely lonely and isolated after leaving school. I will probably not talk to anyone besides my family members.
I will also constantly be remembered that I wasted my youth. I almost have no memories of time during school because I did nothing. In my free time I watched videos, fapped or played games. In school breaks I browsed Instagram and listened to music. During class I daydreamed.
Did your life get better after high school?
Or if you're still in school, do you think it will get better?
I always disliked school. I was a bad student because I was lazy and on top of that socially anxious. Nevertheless, I passed every year and in only 6 months I'll have my final exams.
I don't know how to feel about that. On the one hand, I won't have the constant pressure of bad oral grades. The grade consists 50% of oral grades and of course they fucked up my grades. It's too late now anyways. I just want to pass the exams and leave school with a really bad GPA. Quite frankly, I'm a bit jealous. There are students with really good grades and I know that I could have been one of them.
Moreover, I won't be stuck in a room for almost the whole day with the same people that don't share my interests. I will not have to analyze stupid texts or remember facts that I don't need to know. By the way, almost every book/text we read is about racism and multiculturalism. I'm neither extreme right nor extreme left but what the fuck? German schools are really trying hard to manipulate kids.
I will also be able to hang around people that share my interests...if I find them.
And that's the doubt that I have. I am scared of being completely lonely and isolated after leaving school. I will probably not talk to anyone besides my family members.
I will also constantly be remembered that I wasted my youth. I almost have no memories of time during school because I did nothing. In my free time I watched videos, fapped or played games. In school breaks I browsed Instagram and listened to music. During class I daydreamed.
Did your life get better after high school?
Or if you're still in school, do you think it will get better?
