After mentioning it in another thread, I've seriously been trying to come up with anything which I actually want to do or experience, but the answer is basically nothing.
I don't even want to leave my house if I can help it. About the only thing which I have any desire to do outside is see escorts, but a lack of energy and general disinterest overrides my diminished sex drive. I hate the civilization around me, and there isn't a cause which I can contribute to which isn't hopeless. I no longer want a relationship with a woman now that I'm quickly closing in on 30, and now that I've spent the vast majority of my youth as an ostracized reject viewed as little more than a cockroach, simply because I'm ugly. Attraction, infatuation, the way our brains are chemically incentivize us to interact with attractive people, and even more to avoid the unattractive, it all just disgusts me.
On top of all of that almost nothing interests me. When not entirely focused on escapism I typically think about my past and just seethe, think about what a wretched species we are, and generally fantasize about and long for death.
I don't even want to leave my house if I can help it. About the only thing which I have any desire to do outside is see escorts, but a lack of energy and general disinterest overrides my diminished sex drive. I hate the civilization around me, and there isn't a cause which I can contribute to which isn't hopeless. I no longer want a relationship with a woman now that I'm quickly closing in on 30, and now that I've spent the vast majority of my youth as an ostracized reject viewed as little more than a cockroach, simply because I'm ugly. Attraction, infatuation, the way our brains are chemically incentivize us to interact with attractive people, and even more to avoid the unattractive, it all just disgusts me.
On top of all of that almost nothing interests me. When not entirely focused on escapism I typically think about my past and just seethe, think about what a wretched species we are, and generally fantasize about and long for death.
tru tbh ngl
