I made mistakes, i couldn't control my mouth. And said somethings i shouldn't have said doubled that that im ugly. I basically gave them a reason to hate me.
I currently after high school, have no friends. I just wished i socialized while in middle school and high school. Making friends at that age range is more likely to me real, since people are not particulary self motivated, after something. Everyone to some extend is being themselves. While in adulthood making friends is had, everyone (but not all) are self motivated driven, looking to use others, looking to advanced them selves.
Im literary here alone, with no social skills, no skill at all in that fact. Didnt grow up with connection with my dad, i literarly have no connections with my dad, and its too late because im already an adult, he said he got tired of being alone, and went on to marry a woman and had 2 kids. Looking back i understand why.
Don't have any connections with my cousins, i dont even know who are my cousins on my dads side. And even if i go vist them. We are basically strangers, i never grew up with them. They'll just use me for my money. Not to mention i dont know everyone in my family.
I Currently live with a pyscho-overzeaous religious mom. Self sufficient- country living all of that believer. She should have told me, from the beggining that their was no eating meating; veganism, and that i woukd be reading books from their cult leader. I just want to get out, or hoping that it one day stops. Even if i do get out, i can't just abandon her, she'll approaching 60. Shes elderly. Dont to mention she can't get what she wants because of not enough money. And no connection, even family connections. I do believe livong with her caused my inceldom (isolation)
I was quite socialiable befote i lived with her.
Now im paying the consequences. No friends, no family support. Isolation. Boredom, defeated.
I currently after high school, have no friends. I just wished i socialized while in middle school and high school. Making friends at that age range is more likely to me real, since people are not particulary self motivated, after something. Everyone to some extend is being themselves. While in adulthood making friends is had, everyone (but not all) are self motivated driven, looking to use others, looking to advanced them selves.
Im literary here alone, with no social skills, no skill at all in that fact. Didnt grow up with connection with my dad, i literarly have no connections with my dad, and its too late because im already an adult, he said he got tired of being alone, and went on to marry a woman and had 2 kids. Looking back i understand why.
Don't have any connections with my cousins, i dont even know who are my cousins on my dads side. And even if i go vist them. We are basically strangers, i never grew up with them. They'll just use me for my money. Not to mention i dont know everyone in my family.
I Currently live with a pyscho-overzeaous religious mom. Self sufficient- country living all of that believer. She should have told me, from the beggining that their was no eating meating; veganism, and that i woukd be reading books from their cult leader. I just want to get out, or hoping that it one day stops. Even if i do get out, i can't just abandon her, she'll approaching 60. Shes elderly. Dont to mention she can't get what she wants because of not enough money. And no connection, even family connections. I do believe livong with her caused my inceldom (isolation)
I was quite socialiable befote i lived with her.
Now im paying the consequences. No friends, no family support. Isolation. Boredom, defeated.
