azakhan
OG failure
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I was always a pretty sociable person when it came to making friends (of course male) and most of my current ones I met back when I was 13 or so. Then looks didn't really matter and we were all "equal" to eachother. Of course after few months I noticed something was weird. They were all getting attention from girls even though they were all nerdy and shy like me. The difference was that when puberty hit I started to be really unpleasant to look at. My face has weird bone structure and it's pretty giant which looks funny on my tiny 170cm body. Of course I was still friends with them, they invited me to parties and it was cool except for the fact that girls there didn't like my company.
Fast forward few years and I still hang out with my crew except they keep me around only to feel better about themselves and to have a virgin to laugh at who won't talk back but will laugh with them.
I know it sounds pathetic but I had time when I said enough and isolated myself from them. The lonelyness hit hard and I couldn't take it so I started to go out with them again.
Nothing changed they still laugh at me except now they do it with their girlfriends and we don't hang out as often as we used to. Still it's better in my opinion than to be completely alone. At least I have people to drink with.
Fast forward few years and I still hang out with my crew except they keep me around only to feel better about themselves and to have a virgin to laugh at who won't talk back but will laugh with them.
I know it sounds pathetic but I had time when I said enough and isolated myself from them. The lonelyness hit hard and I couldn't take it so I started to go out with them again.
Nothing changed they still laugh at me except now they do it with their girlfriends and we don't hang out as often as we used to. Still it's better in my opinion than to be completely alone. At least I have people to drink with.