Do you get sudden anxiety attacks cause of how fucked you are?

[Deleted member 7448]

I'm usually pretty numb. Doing the same shit every day, more or less no emotions.

But sometimes I get these "OHH SHIT" feelings. Like, I'm 25, and I still feel like a kid. I've literally had no life experiences. When I hear somebody talk about somebody's age, or an age is mentioned somewhere, I get these kinds of feelings. "That dude is 25? My god..." They have careers, money and have had at least a few relationships, a few friends, they have connections. Meanwhile I'm working some random job, spending all my free time either browsing the internet or jacking off.

There's other ohh shit moments I have, too many things can trigger them. Damn, I fucked up a lot in this life.

I don't know if many of you are larping, but when I post around here about how much I've fucked my life up, I'm not even exaggerating.

 

[Not_Important]

It's just a constant dull pain at this point

 

[Deleted member 7448]

It's just a constant dull pain at this point

Well, yeah, the dull pain is present in the background at all times. But sometimes the pain erupts for a few minutes.

 

[Mr. Ponzi]

I do, usually while trying to fall asleep at night.

 

[Deleted member 13256]

Not really when thinking about the future but when I think about the past and all the fucked up things that happened to make me this way.

 

[Ritalincel]

no man

 

[Deleted member 12256]

We are old on the outside but on inside we never escaped HS days, that's how i feel, you need to find some more copes OP, only browsing the internet will make you more sad. Don't you like something else ?

 

[Deleted member 7448]

We are old on the outside but on inside we never escaped HS days, that's how i feel, you need to find some more copes OP, only browsing the internet will make you more sad. Don't you like something else ?

I spent so much effort trying to find something that I like to do.

I literally found nothing. Not even video games entertain me any more. I even made topics on this site about "what to do" and that I'm running out of copes. I literally like nothing.

 

[Deleted member 12256]

I spent so much effort trying to find something that I like to do.

I literally found nothing. Not even video games entertain me any more. I even made topics on this site about "what to do" and that I'm running out of copes. I literally like nothing.

I get it but you must find something, it will get worst if you don't get some copes and you know what i mean by worst.....Find something you can afford.

 

[RobertsonIsShe]

I get embarrassed mainly. Ashamed, sometimes.

 

[AllHandsOnDeck]

Getting mogged is when I feel things like this

 

[Spite]

But sometimes I get these "OHH SHIT" feelings. Like, I'm 25, and I still feel like a kid

I get these too

 

[Deleted member 1252]

I have an emotional breakdown every 2 years or so. Lasts about 2 months. One of these times, I’ll rope for sure.

 

[FlyFace]

Yeah.. it's like a constant nauseous feeling in the pit of my stomach, like it is being flooded with death. It gets to unfathomably bad levels when I see people being happy and living their life.. reminding me of how empty mine is and continues to be.

 

[Jockcel]

I can relate to you guys so much.

 

[Opus132]

Even people who have done something with their lives are going to die in the end. Nothing you do on this earth matters in the long run, i wouldn't worry too much about not being able to "catch up" and i would strive to find meaning in what you have.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

Even people who have done something with their lives are going to die in the end. Nothing you do on this earth matters in the long run, i wouldn't worry too much about not being able to "catch up" and i would strive to find meaning in what you have.

I know that. Still, I have 50 or so years of this shit left, and it's not like I can stop the feeling of regret.

 

[ChronicPaincel]

I do, usually while trying to fall asleep at night.

happens so often

 

[Aleus]

Yes I have these too. I have no friends, not even acquaintances. I go to uni, talk to no one and go home again. I can't connect with people my age and my social skills have deteriorated to a point where I'm unable to have a basic conversation. I want to have a wife and children someday, but the chances of this happening are progressively declining. If I reach the point where I know that I can forget such a life, which I believe is very soon, I will dedicate myself to something greater than myself in order to leave a mark on this world.

 

[everythingislava]

I'm usually pretty numb. Doing the same shit every day, more or less no emotions.

But sometimes I get these "OHH SHIT" feelings. Like, I'm 25, and I still feel like a kid. I've literally had no life experiences. When I hear somebody talk about somebody's age, or an age is mentioned somewhere, I get these kinds of feelings. "That dude is 25? My god..." They have careers, money and have had at least a few relationships, a few friends, they have connections. Meanwhile I'm working some random job, spending all my free time either browsing the internet or jacking off.

This is super relatable to me - I've been exactly the same way where I felt like I have 0 emotion aside from the occasional panic attack.

However, it kind of changed when I started taking Venlafaxil ~2 weeks ago. Now I actually feel emotions, more sadness and actually even occasional happiness.

 

[1980Revolver]

Yeah, it's like this dull, persistent ache, or a weight that's settled on my shoulders that just cannot be shrugged off. There is the occasional respite via pursuing an intellectual interest or indulging in some pleasant JO fantasy, but otherwise I am forced to parlay with the undeniable reminders that society regards me as subhuman rubbish.

 

[Tension]

Oh absolutely. I feel like this pretty much once a week, sometimes I have an emotional breakdown or just start crying for no reason. I just think a lot when I have nothing to do (which is most of the time anyway), and when I think a lot my mind drifts off and I think about my future and stuff...and that's when the anxiety attacks kick in.

I dunno, I just worry almost constantly, telling myself that there is never any hope and that I'm destined to die a failure.

 

[Deleted member 1410]

I usually don't give a fuck anymore. feelings are gay.

 

[Hoffman_13]

everyone my age lifemogs me tbh

 

[RageAgainstTDL]

Absolutely. This sense of dread and failure and closing in surrounds me. I'm reminded of all the years gone by and all the ambitions I had that are now unfilled. I'm reminded that I'm still trapped due to circumstances beyond my control (like my health) and that even in the best case it will be years more before I can escape. I'm reminded I will never be normal or have been able to have lived a normal life. I want to scream. I pace restlessly. I try to calm down. Sometimes it goes like that for hours. Lately it's more subdued and I can control it better.

I find St. John's Wort 600 mg a day 3-5 days a week definitely takes the edge off it.

 

[LDARBuddah]

Yep. I have some personality disorders I feel like. Whenever I feel good I can have a lot of energy and act autistic (not diagnosed as it tho)

I get depressed quite a lot sometimes Its so bad I have to just lay down and watch some videogame playhroughs on YT of games that Ive played as a child.

I want to break out of this pattern. SSRI:s never worked well for me neither

 

[leftyincel]

psychiatrists have tried to numb me out of those feelings, but they fucked me up more in the process

 

[IsolationHurts]

Yes... They were more usual before, I think I'm better now.
You basically need copes... I really like some online games like League of Legends. It's pathetic that's I play that shit when I'm 28 already but... I just don't give a fuck anymore. Same with meditation. Is gay as fuck but idc tbh. Same with weed. Maybe I get lung cancer, who fucking cares. Same with talking alone to myself . Maybe I seem to be crazy, I don't care. I'm nobody, no one cares about me and nobody will remember be anyway. If it makes me feel better before killing myself, it's ok.

 

[Angus13]

I spent so much effort trying to find something that I like to do.

I literally found nothing. Not even video games entertain me any more. I even made topics on this site about "what to do" and that I'm running out of copes. I literally like nothing.

I'm kinda having the same issue but I'm 39 yrs old, been feeling this way for about-- well actually through most of my 30's. But it's getting worse. On top of that I am an anti-social aspie working at a very highly stressful job where there are a ton of people.

And what little people skills I have are gravely deteriorating, I am becoming a morbid, angry asshole to everyone heh.... Copes eventually start to where off, well, except weed, weed helps.

 

[feelsbadman32]

i'm in a constant state of panic over my life, alcohol and weed help a bit, the feeling of absolute hopelessness is pure horror

 

[Anger]

Yes, i often feel i'm still a child since i have no life experiences.

 

[IHateMySelf]

I do, usually while trying to fall asleep at night.

Yes, i often feel i'm still a child since i have no life experiences.

 

[SchrodingersDick]

I'm usually pretty numb. Doing the same shit every day, more or less no emotions.

But sometimes I get these "OHH SHIT" feelings. Like, I'm 25, and I still feel like a kid. I've literally had no life experiences. When I hear somebody talk about somebody's age, or an age is mentioned somewhere, I get these kinds of feelings. "That dude is 25? My god..." They have careers, money and have had at least a few relationships, a few friends, they have connections. Meanwhile I'm working some random job, spending all my free time either browsing the internet or jacking off.

There's other ohh shit moments I have, too many things can trigger them. Damn, I fucked up a lot in this life.

I don't know if many of you are larping, but when I post around here about how much I've fucked my life up, I'm not even exaggerating.

imagine having relationships and experiences.

 

[SilentSoup]

Yeah, I freeze up and feel terribly anxious and scared. A lot like what you're describing.

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

just the whole first half of this year

it started when i realised i can't even attract poor uneducated overweight women (juggernaut law) and that it's not onitis or whatever holding me back

 

[Barbados Slim]

I feel you, you can't sleep at night because of it, constantly thinking about how your fucked and panic because of the future. Bitter af towards anyone with their shit together that is you age. Feeling like such a waste of life, living a life of anxiety and depression until the day you die, hoping it just gets better when in reality it just gets worse. If you don't let go and except your past you won't ever move forward, once you do that you can focus on what is keeping you back from taking control of your life. You might not ever find some woman to love you, but fuck you might make some friends or even just find peace being alone.

 

[Existentialcel]

Absolutely. This sense of dread and failure and closing in surrounds me. I'm reminded of all the years gone by and all the ambitions I had that are now unfilled. I'm reminded that I'm still trapped due to circumstances beyond my control (like my health) and that even in the best case it will be years more before I can escape. I'm reminded I will never be normal or have been able to have lived a normal life. I want to scream. I pace restlessly. I try to calm down. Sometimes it goes like that for hours. Lately it's more subdued and I can control it better.

I find St. John's Wort 600 mg a day 3-5 days a week definitely takes the edge off it.

At the very least you have a career and you’re being proactive

 

[Mieka]

But sometimes I get these "OHH SHIT" feelings. Like, I'm 25, and I still feel like a kid. I've literally had no life experiences.

I feel these feelings too
I never had a proper job and at this point I'm so far behind everyone I'm scared to get one
I have absolutely no experience being social and with each year it only gets worse
I also get those feelings when I remind myself I have done absolutely nothing with my life for the past 2 years

 

[PpJackp]

In my senior year this year and i have no idea what to do with my life
i feel you though op

 

[DyingInside]

I'm probably gonna end up like you when I'm 25. I can already relate to most of what you're feeling now

 

[Henry de Montherlant]

Read books, watch movies, gymcel, listen / play music, draw / paint, idk. There are so many stuffs you can do to make life less shitty.

 

[Mainländer]

I can relate a lot. Being a "manchild"
sucks because looks are all that matters and when you're old you look old.

If I could look 17 or something for a day I would be able to be just like I am and nobody would say shit. But since I LOOK old I can't be like that.

 

[Blue Squirtle]

Same, it sucks when you're in your situation because of your parents, something you had no control over.

 

[ValiantThor2]

There was an instance the other week in the supermarket. I had felt pretty good and relaxed the whole day. I went to pick up something to put in the basket and saw my reflection on a piece of metal at the back of the shelves. My mood instantly changed & I walked around the place feeling sick to the stomach & doomed. Thinking of how everyone had been looking at that face whole day. this happens to me nearly everyday though and the lists of triggers are uncountable.

 

[GeneticFilth]

There was an instance the other week in the supermarket. I had felt pretty good and relaxed the whole day. I went to pick up something to put in the basket and saw my reflection on a piece of metal at the back of the shelves. My mood instantly changed & I walked around the place feeling sick to the stomach & doomed. Thinking of how everyone had been looking at that face whole day. this happens to me nearly everyday though and the lists of triggers are uncountable.

I can't even go to the mall without experiencing severe anxiety and wanting to ldar because of years of torment and harassment for the way I look. Looks of pity, smirks, laughter, and disgust from everyone tell the day I die.

 

[TheLegendofBentCock]

I'm usually pretty numb. Doing the same shit every day, more or less no emotions.

But sometimes I get these "OHH SHIT" feelings. Like, I'm 25, and I still feel like a kid. I've literally had no life experiences. When I hear somebody talk about somebody's age, or an age is mentioned somewhere, I get these kinds of feelings. "That dude is 25? My god..." They have careers, money and have had at least a few relationships, a few friends, they have connections. Meanwhile I'm working some random job, spending all my free time either browsing the internet or jacking off.

There's other ohh shit moments I have, too many things can trigger them. Damn, I fucked up a lot in this life.

I don't know if many of you are larping, but when I post around here about how much I've fucked my life up, I'm not even exaggerating.

I'm a few years beyond that point, but have been where you are.

 

[Smallondick]

Alternate between mild euphoria and mild to moderate depression.

I'm usually pretty numb. Doing the same shit every day, more or less no emotions.

But sometimes I get these "OHH SHIT" feelings. Like, I'm 25, and I still feel like a kid. I've literally had no life experiences. When I hear somebody talk about somebody's age, or an age is mentioned somewhere, I get these kinds of feelings. "That dude is 25? My god..." They have careers, money and have had at least a few relationships, a few friends, they have connections. Meanwhile I'm working some random job, spending all my free time either browsing the internet or jacking off.

There's other ohh shit moments I have, too many things can trigger them. Damn, I fucked up a lot in this life.

I don't know if many of you are larping, but when I post around here about how much I've fucked my life up, I'm not even exaggerating.

I had dickpill at 23 and now that agepill hit me, I feel that ... I'm 26.

 

[Michael15651]

I get panic attacks in general, but not necessarily based on that.