used to drink once or twice per week last year
right now, its more like once every 2-3 months but I feel like drinking tonight tbh, i had a rough week... well every weeks rough but some weeks rougher than other weeks
i really shouldn't though because i feel that my anxiety has improved greatly. I used to have panic attacks when around people. Or I'd randomly feel jittery when out and about. I'd feel the serious need to either drink more right at that instance or crawl onto my bed in my dark room.
Now I know that what I was experiencing was alcohol withdrawal. You get massive anxiety whenever you feel lonely or depressed. And the only way to cure it is with immediate alcohol consumption in copious amounts.
Thats no way to fuckin live. Because the next work week, guess what, you're gonna have those same panic attacks and the week after that and so on.
Once you're sober 2-3 weeks you're on the road to recovery and start to feel less anxious around people. You still feel a little sluggish, a little depressed, have negative thoughts, and still have minor bouts of anxiety though.
1-2 months sober and beyond, you feel all around better and don't panic around people or panic whenever you feel lonely/depressed.
You gain some muscle back, skin health improves, and lose weight overall as well.