NeverGetUp
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Back when I was 14 or 15 if I can remember correctly there was a becky tier Kazakh girl who kept touching my arm randomly and she talked a lot to me while always keeping an eye contact at all times. I was very nervous around her even though I enjoyed it at the same time
Actually now that I think about it that girl talked way more than me while I kept quiet so the conversations were always one sided.
Its weird now that I think about it I might have had a chance but I was so autistic that I didn't get it. She even asked me for my instagram but I just mumbled that I don't use social media at all
How socially retarded was I, I could have had my first sexual experience back then but on the other hand I think she might have also been playing some sort of joke on me. I remember that I never really trusted her and I was paranoid that she will make fun of me if I ended up hanging out with her in my free time. Idk, I find it hard to believe that women would be attracted to me in a physical sexual way considering my looks. Im an ugly subhuman with crooked teeth, its literally impossible. What do you think?
And no this is not bragging, that happened many years ago at this point and now women mostly ignore me and avoid me completely
Im really just genuinly wondering if I might have had a chance back then or is this something common? Was she trying to manipulate me? As I said I could never in my life trust any woman because even if I wasn't as blackpilled back then as Im today I always thought of myself as an ugly outcast destined to fail. Ever since I was 10 in fact I started seeing myself as an absolute loser and I even made videos on a camera and later on a phone rambling about my insecurities from time to time.
I would say I rarely think about the past but today I remembered this shit and I thought to myself, damn I could have potentially ascended then but now its too late. My adolescence was completely wasted
EDIT: Mods Im still a virgin to this day with very little to no chance of ascension and I belong here despite this moment which was arguably the most fakecel moment in my entire life as I myself would put it and also its important to remember this happened quite some time ago as of now and I would say Im definitely uglier than I used to be. I changed a lot physically since I was 14 for example my teeth got somewhat more crooked and my hair started thinning recently
Actually now that I think about it that girl talked way more than me while I kept quiet so the conversations were always one sided.
Its weird now that I think about it I might have had a chance but I was so autistic that I didn't get it. She even asked me for my instagram but I just mumbled that I don't use social media at all
How socially retarded was I, I could have had my first sexual experience back then but on the other hand I think she might have also been playing some sort of joke on me. I remember that I never really trusted her and I was paranoid that she will make fun of me if I ended up hanging out with her in my free time. Idk, I find it hard to believe that women would be attracted to me in a physical sexual way considering my looks. Im an ugly subhuman with crooked teeth, its literally impossible. What do you think?
And no this is not bragging, that happened many years ago at this point and now women mostly ignore me and avoid me completely
Im really just genuinly wondering if I might have had a chance back then or is this something common? Was she trying to manipulate me? As I said I could never in my life trust any woman because even if I wasn't as blackpilled back then as Im today I always thought of myself as an ugly outcast destined to fail. Ever since I was 10 in fact I started seeing myself as an absolute loser and I even made videos on a camera and later on a phone rambling about my insecurities from time to time.
I would say I rarely think about the past but today I remembered this shit and I thought to myself, damn I could have potentially ascended then but now its too late. My adolescence was completely wasted
EDIT: Mods Im still a virgin to this day with very little to no chance of ascension and I belong here despite this moment which was arguably the most fakecel moment in my entire life as I myself would put it and also its important to remember this happened quite some time ago as of now and I would say Im definitely uglier than I used to be. I changed a lot physically since I was 14 for example my teeth got somewhat more crooked and my hair started thinning recently
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