I was enthusiastic about nofap, did 7 days then finally found cute loli to puamaxx. we even talked she seemed a bit uncomfortable but it was alright, lasted 5 minutes and went better than most of my pua attempts where she tells me she has a boyfriend or just immediately tells me she has to go 
she even gave number and I thought I'll finally make it or at least get a fucking date. I call 2 days later, I finally decided to just go for coffee even though it's good in my experience to go on active dates because you're not just sitting around talking about boring shit but no answer.
I call again 3 hours after and still no answer. no clue actually why she'd give number then not respond like she didn't hesitate much giving number. but it made me really sad and depressed, I definitely thought I'd get at least a fucking date and then get ghosted but nope so I immediately opened some porn and jerked it for 2 hours straight to break my 9 day streak which helped me lower my cortisol at least. since then I coom every second day so I guess it's better than before but it's really fucking hard to commit to 'self improvement' when your life is dogshit with no way out. anyway I'll call in 3 hours or less from now on if I ever get another number so there's less of a chance her cunt friends convince her that I'm a rapist and if I fail I'll at least don't stress 2 days over it
anyway hope you guys enjoyed the suifuel
she even gave number and I thought I'll finally make it or at least get a fucking date. I call 2 days later, I finally decided to just go for coffee even though it's good in my experience to go on active dates because you're not just sitting around talking about boring shit but no answer.I call again 3 hours after and still no answer. no clue actually why she'd give number then not respond
like she didn't hesitate much giving number. but it made me really sad and depressed, I definitely thought I'd get at least a fucking date and then get ghosted but nope so I immediately opened some porn and jerked it for 2 hours straight to break my 9 day streak which helped me lower my cortisol at least. since then I coom every second day so I guess it's better than before but it's really fucking hard to commit to 'self improvement' when your life is dogshit with no way out. anyway I'll call in 3 hours or less from now on if I ever get another number so there's less of a chance her cunt friends convince her that I'm a rapist and if I fail I'll at least don't stress 2 days over it anyway hope you guys enjoyed the suifuel
