Depression back now im out of work

[justuseless]

A long time ago I used to fuss over being ugly, never getting a girl, never experiencing youth, all the usual incel stuff. It used to get me really down. I'm sure everyone here could relate.

Then somewhere along the line I just accepted my fate. I accepted I'd never be in romantic relationships, always be a social outcast and never have a meaningful existence. I stopped my pitiful attempts at looksmaxing and just got on with life. Externally nothing changed, life was still shit, but at least internally I was content. My depression went away. I became numb. Kind of like a sociopathic normie my emotional range became pretty basic and revolved around the fulfillment of my every day needs.

Now at 30 I haven't been working for like 3 months and this stupid crap is back. Im starting to get depressed again. Starting to think about girls 10 years younger with their boyfriends living that dream i once used to wish for.

I've started regretting life again. Regretting my shit genetic luck and thinking about how everything could have been different if i had been born as someone else. Started regretting the fact im getting old and its still as shit as ever. And worst of all im starting to get romantically attracted to girls again. Girls who i could never have.




Anyway i just needed to vent

 

[luciolencerr]

inkwelldom discussed in lounge

 

[nevergetsanybetter]

brutal

 

[Animecel2D]

nevergetsanybetter

 

[stalkerKiller]

inkwelldom discussed in lounge

Don't be a faggot about it when our inkwell brother is spilling his guts.

Im starting to get depressed again. Starting to think about girls 10 years younger with their boyfriends living that dream i once used to wish for.

Brutal. I don't have a conscience anymore so I honestly don't care about foids. I space out whenever I see them.
Maybe we are different people but you should have learned at this age to live with inceldom. I liver for freedom, what do you live for?

 

[VPSCel]

It never leaves you either. Whenever you think life might just get better... you realize you are fucked and will never crawl out of this hole.

 

[chudjak]

a meaningful existence

Maybe you need to find one separate from the normies, even counterintuitive to them

 

[justuseless]

Don't be a faggot about it when our inkwell brother is spilling his guts.



Brutal. I don't have a conscience anymore so I honestly don't care about foids. I space out whenever I see them.

This is how i was for the last 7 or so years. But its coming back now. The feelings.

 

[justuseless]

It never leaves you either. Whenever you think life might just get better... you realize you are fucked and will never crawl out of this hole.

So true

 

[Grodd]

nevergetsanybetter

 

[Subhuman Niceguy]

Get an avatar, greynigger.

 

[stalkerKiller]

This is how i was for the last 7 or so years. But its coming back now. The feelings.

Idk. Do whatever you did the last 7 years or just go somewhere no woman would dare go like Whitehorse Yukon, Bodø Norway or Jakuts Russia.

You either cope, rope or go somewhere where you see no foids.

 

[DeadOnArrivalCel]

The punishment never EVER ends.

 

[luciolencerr]

Don't be a faggot about it when our inkwell brother is spilling his guts.

sorry

 

[bcroger]

Why are you out of work now?

 

[ldargoblin]

Maybe we are different people but you should have learned at this age to live with inceldom. I liver for freedom, what do you live for?

Don't forget about the midlife crisis, it only makes the situation worse.

 

[stalkerKiller]

Don't forget about the midlife crisis, it only makes the situation worse.

Idk, I'm 20, the mid life crisis is some other 20 years away. And I personally know a lot of people who haven't had it, so maybe it is not such a generic phenomenon as people think.